I dunno, I don't really do guilt beyond truly bad acts done by choice.
That being said, I am a chocolate milk fiend.
I have to strictly limit myself or I'd drink nothing else, and not eat anything useful nutritionally.
Chocolate in general is my one true vice. I don't drink, I don't use recreational drugs, I'm monogamous (and happily so), I quit tobacco, and even caffeine beyond trace amounts in decaf. But you try an take chocolate out of my life, and I will fuck you up.
I'll even accept Hershey's if there's nothing else available.
But chocolate milk? Fuck me running. Cold, sweet, chocolatey goodness. I will walk right the fuck over infants and kittens if there's a cup on the other side. Puppies? I dunno, I think I'd try to step between them, but I'm not making promises.
Home made is incredible. But my particular weaknesses are the pet trumoo, and the promised land midnight. They use thickeners that up the silky texture. The promised land stuff is meant to be more like melted ice cream, and it succeeds.
Which, don't even ask me how quick I can kill a pint of hagendaz chocolate. Don't blink is all I'll say there.
I have no guilt involved there, but holy fuck is it an indulgence.
Oh, man. I’m in my 30s, and now that my son is 6.5yo and has found his passion for chocolate milk, I rediscovered mine. We purposefully limit how much we buy every time we do the groceries, or we’d both be drinking the thing day and night. I’m slightly lactose intolerant, on top of it…
So Troi is half betazoid, and grew up with her mother on betazed. Where, presumably, there was no chocolate.
I know I know they have replicators and whatever. I just find it amusing that chocolate from Earth is so appealing as a flavor that less than a hundred years after joining the federation, Betazoid children are growing up loving chocolate frequently enough that Troi develops a strong taste for it.
There's a local brand in Vermont named monument farms - they make an insanely good whole chocolate milk. If you ever get a chance to have it go for it. I'm lactose intolerant but when I lived in Vermont I accepted all consequences to occasionally enjoy a nice tall glass of that.
I don't know how regional this is, but Prairie Farms has a line of "premium" milks sold in small 1 serving bottles (and occasionally pints too) that I've only found at gas stations. The chocolate milk of that variety is really good but the strawberry milk is the nectar of the gods
I once had a bloody nose while walking, I was about a half hour away from home. Since I don't carry tissues, I did what made the most sense and just held my thumb over my nostril. Once I got home I grabbed a tissue and took my thumb away while leaning over the bathroom sink. Nothing came out, but my nose was plugged. I twisted the tissue and inserted it, removing it pulled out a 3 inch long bloodclot cast of the inside of my sinus that fell onto the palm of my weak hand. It was like a slug made of blood. The feeling of it slithering from my face was what I imagine to be the closest approximation of what the loving embrace of a benevolent god feels like while cumming. It was a transcendental natural high that no experience has come close to.
I wonder if it has something to do with my parents being heavy smokers as a kid, now I think about it. Nicotine is detectable in mucus, so if you do the kid thing of trying it enough maybe you can end up vaguely addicted?
Used to have a problem where I'd scratch my head and sniff it when stressed which stopped when my parents quit, too, now I think about it....
I use light mode on Discord, and just about everything really. I don't like the feeling of being in a gamer cave. I always have a bunch of lamps on, and light themes too.
No lying, I have in the past. I spent $5 here and there on a game I played for about two years. The total was certainly under $50. I have known people to spend a lot though.
Sad story, I stopped playing that game because I betrayed my long-time league by using a hacked game and getting banned from the game. They had invested a lot of trust in me and given me leadership over their original team. I wanted to be like them, but I didn't have the skill, so I cheated. I lost that team for them forever. I loved those guys, I really did, what a great time and a great social outlet. I even met one of them for lunch. Real friends online.
Man I feel this. I've been obsessed with Cooking Diary since May of last year.
Just this morning, I popped awake, threw on some YT drama videos for background noise, and just played CD for like an hour and a half before I was like "Time to be productive". Good easy start to a Sunday.
That being said, I saw further down you try not to spend money on the mobile games. I went through a phase in 2019/2020 where I was fucking massively into a Chinese dating Sim game called "Mr Love Queens Choice." I spent $850 over the course of 2 years. It was a great game and I had a ton of fun, but there was a point where I crossed into a bonus tier that you could only get to by spending a certain dollar amount. And then I was like "Oh. Oh no boo boo what is you doin'?!".
Ok that game looks really fun and cozy though. Is it actually? Is it one of those games that demands your money or limits everything with cooldown timers?
You can spend money but I don't. Everything seems to be coming to me pretty quickly F2P. They have a great in game communications system that keeps you from having to use discord to coordinate or socialize. It also has an amazing translation system that allows people from all languages to work together.
It has a LOT to do at first but then just as you get tired it backs WAY off and you have a casual game where you could easily start a second account if you wanted.
When I was a kid I would take cold hot dogs and grind them on the wheels of my toy truck, take the ground hot dog meat and make a taco out of it with American cheese slices.
nope. I ate it with a bag of popcorn next to me and a glass of chocolate milk next to me. I would take like three popped corns in my fingers and dip them in the milk like an oreo and let them soak up the chocolately milkey goodness.
I smoke weed every day. Casual marijuana consumption is definitely socially acceptable here (I'm in Canada where it's legal) but I've been high more often than not for the past 8 years or so.
Same here! Look up CHS. It’s awfully rare, and IIRC is more prevalent in men than women. It sucks. A T-break every now and again is healthy for the body, mind and spirit.
It is not easy to stop. Anyone who says otherwise doesn't get it.
It was life-changing to get sober. Weed was the last thing I let go of, a decade and a half ago. Literally everything good in my life today flows (directly or indirectly) from that decision.
It was life-changing to get sober. Weed was the last thing I let go of, a decade and a half ago. Literally everything good in my life today flows (directly or indirectly) from that decision.
Can you elaborate on the benefits you experienced by quitting?
I bathe 2-3 times a day. A quick one in the morning to get me out of the house, or I just skip it if I don't have time. Cycle to work, real shower there. Then a nice long bath in the evening where I just soak and watch anime. Or browse Lemmy.
I like that end of the day bath too. Must be the Japanese in me. I feel some guilt over the water usage, but then again, I'm soaking in there for half an hour. If I did the same in a shower, I'd probably use even more water right? Also, the more you weigh, the more water you displace, meaning you need less to fill the tub. So it's a rare case of weight gain actually reducing resource consumption. Thank you Archimedes!
36 year old and still sleep with stuffed animals. I've had them for 30 years and just honestly sleep better with them than a pillow. They are a stuffed wolf named timber and a stuffed dog named woofles.
I think only the real dog judges me, but that's cause she's a jealous bitch.
A lot of people are saying porn, drugs and alcohol which sure i indulge in but not really in excess. I would if i let myself own any but i dont. My biggest indulgence is media, i consume slop in excess, i let myself fall into meaningless entertainment. Usually drama, youtube drama, it makes me feel so gross because i know how much of a waste of time it is. I could be studying or spending quality time with the people i love but instead i just listen to drivel.
I know it seems relatively harmless but i hate that about myself. I dont even enjoy it much, i just do it becuase id rather do that than nothing
I had similar problems and finally realized it was a symptom called executive dysfunction. I'd do easy dopamine drips like video games or watching YouTube videos instead of projects I want to do or tasks I need to do
Are you introverted? If you are, it sounds like you just need some time to recharge on your own.
But then if you don't enjoy the dramas then maybe you could try actively seeking out a solo activity that you do enjoy? Because it sounds like it might just be a procrastination activity which isn't usually as rewarding as we want and you'll feel better actively taking time out to do something you truly want to do.
It is a procrastination ativity unfortunately, my school work is hard and i need breaks but dont have anything i really enjoy at the moment. I dont know what id want to do and have time to do rn
My time is split between work and spending time with my girlfriend which while i enjoy isnt personal time yk?
As someone who watches +5 hours of YouTube a day I'd say the main issue with this stuff is the ease of access. I can easily lost track of time and spend hours organizing screws in my tool shed but that mean I need to actually decide to go there first. That takes effort. Sitting in front of my PC and opening youtube (or xvideos) doesn't take effort.
The flavoured kind, sure. But I'm talking about these - do these not qualify as a proper tortilla chip? They are just Corn, Rapeseed Oil, Salt and Anti-oxidants.
It’s even weirder. Not only was that the original flavor and the namesake of the brand, it was also the first brand of tortilla chips sold outside socal
For context I am almost 40 year old women. Okay, so I like to watch gaming videos on youtube. Markipler, Let's Game it Out, CallmeKevin, RT game, Dunkey, y'know moslty geared towards kids, young adult gaming content. I never do this unless I am home alone because I don't think anyone would get why I'm watching an adult man play a wrestling game with his bright red, 20 foot tall wrestler named Johnny Hotbody.
This one is pretty hilarious. I would 100% assume you're buying booze for people you are way too young to be hanging out with.
I buy a 6 pack of smirnoff ice once per year. My buddy loves golfing on his birthday and I hide ices throughout his bag, cart, and course because even in our mid 30s it's funny to see someone chug an ice while on one knee.
I've never seen it myself, but my wife spent most of her childhood/teenage years in Shetland, and apparently up there, back then, Smirnoff ice was the drink of choice for hard working middle aged men. We're talking about a bunch of islands where the main employment is offshore fishing and the oil & gas industry, and where they're very proud of their Viking heritage. (Image search Jarl squad to see what I mean, those guys who are picked for the squad will grow their beards all year to look the part)
Sometimes I'll swing by Starbucks before my hour long commute to work I feel guilty each time because all but one coffee shop in town closed down but we have like 7 Starbucks now, one literally across the street from the other
Some Starbucks locations operate at a loss to saturate a market and ensure no competitors can move in. Hence why you sometimes end up with them so close together.
At peak a city of about 40,000 people that I lived in had 11 Starbucks within 3 miles, it was insane.
Socially unacceptable? Every person I've ever worked with does this or has done this regularly at some point in their lives. There's a reason Starbucks is everywhere. No offense, but I wish this triggered more shame in people. Instead, it's normal behavior.
I hoard many, many TBs of handpicked, high-resolution porn and VR porn, divided by race, subdivided by star, with shortcut links when the women do scenes together. I enjoy organizing and maintaining the collection. I enjoy finding new porn from new people or discovering girls I missed and getting their backcatalog. Part of my after work/school routine is checking for new torrents of interest and if I miss days or weeks of new content, I'll spend hours going back to find what I want until I'm caught up. All following strict, internal guidelines of what I want, not just everything.
The funny thing is I know for a fact that I watch around the average amount of porn as someone who just uses pornhub or something, and whack it only once a day to every few days.
I just love the collecting of it. ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯
I mean, it's just like collecting baseball cards. Just because I enjoy collecting them, doesn't mean I inherently have to jerk off to them more than the next guy
Hello my brother in pornography! I’m the same way, it’s the weirdest thing. I love maintaining my collection more than I do “utilizing” it - it’s such a weird thing. As another commenter mentioned check out Stash, it will change your hoarding game (There is quite the active community for it too!), I have a tremendous library all custom tagged (To the point of even having the personal “emotion” of individual videos even tagged!) and I just love growing it and maintaining it.
If you’ve been doing this for some time as I have I’m curious - do you also have a number of videos which are weirdly nostalgic? Like you feel very fondly about them even though they may be low quality/not content you are particularly into today, but you can’t imagine not having them in the library? Some of my most “treasured” videos are ones which I would never seek out today haha
Edit: Fun fact, I’ve been a Lemmy lurker ever since the Reddit API nonsense, but this is the one comment that finally had me actually interact with the community. It is the porn that binds us? :D
Wow! There's more like me! This is the first time I've ever revealed this to anyone but my closest friends but I figured what the hell. So glad I did!
And yes, absolutely do I have those videos. I've actually been AI upscaling them (occasionally lol, it's a lot of work) and sharing with the community just because I find them special and have a nostalgia for them. That's so crazy, because I was just wondering if I was a kook.
I had a seat mate in math class that would do that, and sneaky eat during lecture. She brought an extra for me sometimes. Flavored noodles are a game changer.
I use to bring these on hikes and field exercises. It does have a lot of sodium but if you want something cheap, light weight, and on the calorie heavy side dry Ramen is great!
Cigars. It's a common topic of judgement, as if I don't know it's an expensive hobby with increased risk of cancer. I just love them, and the rituals involved.
I'm an academic who no longer smokes (thanks grad school...) You meet a huge variety of folks in smoker's pits. The folks a university relies on a hell of a lot more than at least half of faculty. I'm thankful for the daily, sometimes hourly, rituals that taught me that.
I knew a very smart manager who quit smoking but still used to go hang out in the smoking area just to stay in touch with everything. I’ve learn more in 10 minute conversations while smoking with coworkers than entire week long seminars.
I quit smoking years ago but smoked for a long time. If I ever go back to smoking I think it would be a pipe. I did it once or twice and it was extremely relaxing.
Everything I have found says that one or two cigars a week has a fairly minimal impact on cancer risk. Daily or multiple a day is probably bad though.
Before Covid, I was at about one a week, now maybe one a month during the winter and a bit more often in the summer. I usually only buy cigars when I'm on a trip to somewhere that's cheaper than Canada, and I'll stock up there. Fortunately, being Canadian, I can go to Cuba as well as to the US to get cigars, so my humidors have a nice combination of Cubans and new world (I have one for strictly Cubans and the second for new world). Otherwise, cigars here are stupid expensive and I'd probably only have a few a year tops (a $5 USD cigar in the states is often $20CAD or more here).
Kids clothes. I don't fit in them (am late 30s 140lb woman) and I don't try to, but I find myself always drawn to the kids clothing sections because of their bright patterns and prints. I have very basic sewing skills and I've been tempted to take a course on clothes making so I can recreate these in my size. I fuckin love bright colors and silly accessories.
I fuckin love bright colors and silly accessories.
I'm this way with running clothes. It's one of the few "socially acceptable" ways for an adult male to wear neon. I want shoes that look like a leprechaun barfed on them.
Dude, fuckin do it. Sewing is super simple, they sell patterns where you just cut out the paper template to the clothing size you are making, then you pin it to fabric, trace the outline and cut along those lines, then sew it together along the edges. For basic clothes i think anyone could get it first try with a ten minutes on youtube of how to use a seeing machine.
Then you can literally make whatever type of clothes you want, from whatever fabric you can find, super rewarding too.
Along similar lines, I think one of mine has become resisting our cultural expectation of constant growth in all areas possible.
Carter is an obvious one. I like my job and it makes my day more pleasant than past jobs have. The pay is good. I don’t need to painstakingly plan a path to be the manger then the director then the VP, just to spend more of my life working.
I have big plans for the future of the koi pond in my back yard though. The more of my life I spend working on that thing, the better my life seems to get.
(The things that matter or don’t matter are inherently personal - I’m not trying to insult anybody who gets genuine thrill and fulfillment from kicking ass at work constantly. )
oh god, the reactions I get when I'd rather repair a thing for the same cost as buying the same thing. It even happens when fixing the thing is cheaper.
I get this. I'm the director of a small tech company, market forces demand that I just do more work instead, but sometimes some trivial 2$ device breaks and it personally offends me.
So I re-engineer it so it's rated for 100+ years or whatever. I get the boards made in the factory, assemble with hot-air rework, and write the firmware myself. Sometimes it costs me a week, but it produces the things I'm most happy with.
Clients just want cheap stuff done poorly by tomorrow. If you want art, you've got to be your own customer :(
I love black licorice. Developed a taste for it as a kid because it was the only candy available at my grandparents house. Now if I’m hanging out with buddies and I don’t want them mooching off my snacks, I’ll bring black licorice. I’ve only met one other person that wanted some and I was happy to share haha
In past warnings, the FDA notes: “If you’re 40 or older, eating 2 ounces of black licorice a day for at least two weeks could land you in the hospital with an irregular heart rhythm or arrhythmia.”
Eating lunch or going to a movie by myself. Traveling alone and not having to really talk. I like doing those things with my wife or friends too, but not having to worry about anyone or anything else for a bit is great.
I'm not sure eating lunch or going to a film on your own is socially unacceptable. People judge things to make themselves feel better, but I go to lunch on my own on a friday every week cause I'm in a certain part of the city on that day. Films here and there, also- wife and I just saw Oppenheimer last week and someone was there on his own in the row in front of us. I yelled looooooser and threw popcorn at him and when he looked back with tears in his eyes I tongue kissed my wife while making eye contact with him and giving him the finger, then said "you'll die alone haha". That part probably invalidates the previous part of my post now that I think about it, but I think lunch is ok.
I like cinnamon raisin bagels...with scallion and herb cream cheese. It's sweet and savory and the contrast is as good as a super hot shower with an ice cold drink.
Breugger's bagels, may they rest in peace, used to have a bacon/scallion cream cheese. That was divine on cinnamon raisin bagels. I don't know what upset people more, the scallion on a sweet substrate, or the bacon on a bagel. It doesn't matter, if this is goy, I don't want to be kosher.
Edit: double sucks cuz I just remembered I had a friend we called the "Master Bageler" cuz he worked there. He lasted less than 2 weeks before our unnecessary cruelty caused him to quit (teenagers are assholes).
Apparently they still exist. I just haven't seen one in my city in almost 20 years. A quick search shows they're now owned by the same parent company as Einstein. Einstein is fine but I liked Breugger's better.
I think I can relate a bit; I applied for a job and I thought I had it in the bag. Then they told me there weren't interested. Finding jobs, making relationship, and starting big projects is hard because failure is scary and sometimes inevitable, but we are stronger and more resilient than we usually expect. Be brave, and give life hell.
Marxist organizating and running a political education program. I swear to God I'm going to (redacted) when we have the resources to expand into adult literacy.
Using all the toilet paper in each public restroom. It's a habit.
I have such a reputation that, if you live near me and use the ladies' restroom somewhere and all the toilet paper is gone when you take over the stall, local logic goes I was the one who last used it.
Public restrooms are not always fast when it comes to refilling toilet paper, even when there are multiple spare rolls around to refill it with. Anyone can end up being the last one to use the toilet paper in a restroom and have it be a long awaited issue to fix. For me, it's due to routine bad luck with using the bathroom. Often I end up inadvertently being janitorial with it.
Dice about equal volume tomato and cucumber into a bowl, add salt, pepper, and a drizzle each of balsamic vinegar and olive oil. 5 minutes and tasty AF.
I actually saw this documentary about people with a quicksand fetish, who go out in groups and just lounge in quicksand (without the getting swallowed/dying part). They said they loved the way it felt on their skin and being enveloped by it, among other things. It wasn't desert quicksand, but it looked kind of wet.
oh yeah I know all about it. Technically, quicksand is sand suspended in water. It has non-Newtonian properties, sand particles are able to slowly move around like a fluid, but if they move too fast they lock up. So you can sink into it slowly, if you struggle too fast it locks around you. But more commonly the term is broadened to include deep mud pits, usually clay silt, and peat bogs. All of them are denser than water, so there's no real danger of sinking under, you'll float around chest deep. Though you can push yourself under.