What's a nice thing, small or big, that someone's done for you recently?

Well. A year ago I was living with my dad, because he's a broken down old man, and needs help. But he refused help on so many occasions. I'd have to work all the time, to the point where I was never home. But dad wouldn't clean his house. He wouldn't do anything for himself. Eventually it went from "wouldn't" to "couldn't". I'd be gone from 16-18 hours a day, get home, go to sleep, wake up, do it again, 6 days a week. He's completely retired, and could have cleaned after himself at any time. He didn't. Then he suffered health issues. Now he couldn't even stand.

I'd come home sometimes and find him on the bathroom floor.

He wouldn't let me hire a maid. He wouldn't let me hire an assistant. He wouldn't accept any help. And the house suffered. It got bad. Real bad. One year I started noticing mice. And then one day I saw a rat. The house was literally rotting, and I could only do so much on 1 day off a week.

What nobody knew was that I had been suffering physically. I thought it was just me getting older. I'm overweight, but I've always been a very mobile big man. But now I was getting winded going up stairs. I figured "I'm getting older. It's normal."

With me never being home I was eating a lot of fast food. I ballooned up real big real fast. I figured "I have a shitty diet. Of coarse I'm getting fatter. It's normal."

Then I'd get tired doing simple things. I figured "Well, I'm fat now. Fat people get winded. It's normal."

Then one Christmas I'm at my sisters house, and I'm getting real tired doing nothing.

I figured "I've been pushing myself to the limit to pay for dad, and pay for me. My body wants rest. It's normal."

Then my other sister said "You don't look good. You need to go to a doctor."

And the thing is, my sister can be a bit of a drama queen. I figured "it's fine".

Then 3 months later, I pulled my back. My body finally broke down. So I go to the hospital, and the woman says the same thing my sister did. That I looked pale. Which I figured was normal since I'm never in the sun. I wear hoodies in the summer to avoid sun exposure. Being pale was normal, I thought.

The nurse says "Well, I'd like to take a blood sample". In my own mind I'm rolling my eyes, like "yeah, sure, knock yourself out. Waste your own time". Although outwardly I just said "ok", and wasn't sarcastic. Just internally was I dismissive.

She comes back an hour later, and asks how I got into the hospital that day. I said "I took 2 buses, and walked across the street."

She said "No you didn't." And NOW I'm getting maybe a bit more frustrated outwardly, because how are you going to tell ME how I got here???

I said "Yeah. I did. Do you want to see my bus pass?"

And she says "Well, based on your blood sample, you have a blood count of 4.7. To put that in perspective, a male of your age has between 15-18. Essentially, you're so low on blood, that you should have passed out and died at any time long before you hot here. Doing ANY physically active activity."

Then she asked me what I do for a living, and I said "I push wheelchairs. Usually two at a time."

And she said there's no way my blood just dropped that low recently without a major incident. That I must have been losing blood slowly, over weeks, months, or maybe years. She said that at any point with the way I was working myself, I could have passed out and died at any time doing that.

She hooked me up to a bag of blood. Then took a blood test. She said "we're going to hook you into a second bag." Then after that, another blood test. THIRD bag of blood. Another blood test. She said I was still very very low on blood, but they weren't allowed to put any more in me. So I was going to have to stay the night.

Stay the night, in the morning, different nurse, 2 more bags of blood. STILL very low. So now we're doing every test they have to figure out why I'm so low on blood.

I end up staying for 4 days in the hospital. I don't have news. They don't have news. They're running every test they got.

Then finally, on the 5th day, a doctor comes in and tells me I have cancer. I walked in for what I assumed would be a back patch, and a doctors note to miss work, and come to find out a strained back was the least of my worries. Now I'm getting hooked up to chemo, being told I'd be out of work for 6-12 months.

I'm living in a house filled with rats, with a leaking roof, a father who I sometimes find on the floor at home but I can't pick him up, stretching myself beyond my limits, being superman for everyone, and all of this has lead to me getting cancer.

And now I have no job, because you can't be going through cancer, AND still pushing heavy people.

I remember being doped up on surgury drugs and thinking "I have no idea what I'm going to do...."

And I'm not the type to ask for help. I'm the type to help others. Others don't help me, I help others!

And as I sat there in the hospital bed, doped out of my mind, I thought "How?"

And I couldn't answer the question of "how do I provide help for my dad?" I don't know if it was the drugs, or reality crashing down, but I had this scary moment where for the first time in my life things weren't just bad......they were a disaster.

And thats when I realized I can't help dad with or without financial help. You can't help those who want no help. Just as I had scoffed at needing a doctor, he was scoffing at me trying to pay for a roof replacement, and foundational repairs, and extermination services. He won't let me help.

He won't let me help. I can't help him. I can't put into words how that hit me like a brick wall. The feeling of trying to be the hero, and being powerless to help.

I just laid there, watching the office on TBS, and not absorbing any of it.

The next day, I called my sister to tell her the bad news. By this point the drugs had worn off, and I was more alert. When I told her, she said without a moments notice, and without hesitation, she said "We're going to pay for you to move out. We're going to pay your rent. We're going to pay everything.

It was in that moment I realized, I could do the unhealthy thing, and be stubborn. Or I could go with it, start a new chapter of my life, and accept the help.

I did that. Took a year off work. My 2 sisters and mom split paying my rent for a year. Had major surgery to cut the cancer out. Sat at home for a year.

And now, I'm back to work.

So nice things from the state for covering insurance for me.

Nice things from the state to let me get on food stamps while I had no job.

Nice things from the medical staff from many different nurses and doctors, and everybody else.

Nice things from my family to remove me from a situation that gave me cancer.

Nice things from my boss to hold my position (unpaid) for a year so I didn't need to find a new job.

Nice things from pretty much all around.

And this is why I keep the attitude of "if you help everyone, that aura will rub off, and the world will be a better place". I don't believe in karma per se, but I do believe in people noticing you doing good for those around you.

My wife kidnapped me on a Saturday, me thinking we were going to Costco. She kept driving and I was like “wtf!” We eventually stopped at a nice hotel, where we did a spa day and had a nice dinner and overnight. She had packed bags and made all arrangements under my nose. What a woman

Got into a jam while working on the fence today. Neighbor came over and helped. Would not have been able to do it alone.

GF walked the dogs and made dinner while I finished working on the fence. Got some more to do but lots of time.

Also thank you to whomever invented Advil.

My wife turned her happy birthday sign into a happy father's day sign in the simplest, cutest way. I loved it.

My wife bought me the book “Wool”. I just started reading it and it’s really good.

Someone complimented me on the brisket I smoked and said they had never tasted something so good in their entire life.

Had a friend pick up the tab for lunch. We've been back and forth the past month with schedules always not quite lining up, so he was excited to finally chat so much that he insisted on taking the bill.

1. Friends girlfriend lent me her hiking shoes when I picked him up to go hiking having forgotten mine.

2. Payment was down at a hardware store and the manager just let me walk out with the $7 of screws I needed to finish my project that day

She let me down easy.

My friend invited me to the park for a bike ride and brought a joint (legal). I was not expecting that but we had a blast!

My mom stayed with me for a month after surgery to take care of me. I'm in my 30s and never expected to need so much help from my mom again but she was there for me. Also I was held in the hospital for 5 days instead of the expected 2-3. I was starting to lose it, no sense of time, drugged up to my eyeballs, okayish food, my mental health was nose diving. I had to be able to walk a certain amount before they would discharge me. Despite having been able to walk a previous day, the morning of the fifth day I couldn't even stand. The nurses didn't want me to push myself and were saying I may have to stay yet another day. I felt completely defeated like I'd be in the hospital forever. I texted someone I was having a difficult time and they called me, hyped me up, told me I could do it and everything would be okay. I managed to walk later that day and get out of the hospital because of that call

Someone was genuinely interested in how I'm doing.

Got the best selfmade birthday present in my whole life, from my girlfriend

Drove me to Maine for our annual family reunion. It was a blast!

Pancakes for breakfast a couple days in a row. We compared different maple syrup varieties: amber, dark, and extra dark. And compared a blueberry topping with blueberries cooked inside.

Nothing. It's being years.

Honestly I can't remember anymore. It's been years.