Me every weekday: ugh today has been so busy, I can't wait for the weekend when people fuck off and let me live my best life. Play some games, watch some movies, eat some chippys
Me when the weekend hits: lays in bed watching YouTube until it's the week again
I know men go through their own version of PMS somewhat, it may be the flux of your testosterone. Or you may just be changing as a person and find certain things make you feel differently. Maybe it's Maybelline 🤷
Came home from op shopping and I'm starving, so I had a sausage roll. Will have more later for dinner. They are delish tho I think I made the tomato sauce a little too piquant, 1/4 tsp cayenne in 1.5 litres of sauce is HOT 🔥
Finds today include a beautiful sgraffito vase I'm going to use as vase to keep brushes in. A bunch of little spoons to mix ink with . A big murano style vase ( probably made in Thailand or Turkey ) a heap of LPs, including Hawaiian music of the 1950s , Yehudi Menuhin playing Delibes, and some silver earrings with cute lampworked owls. 👍 was a good day
I took picture of the vase. It was dipped in a dark blue slip glaze, dried, the pattern etched to reveal the white porcelain underneath and then fired
got my tax return and some extra money, so mein liebe and I have rent, bills, cat food, and human food paid for. we have then treated ourselves to a pub meal, some beers and wine, and today a coffee and quiche.
feeling good about it all, things will get better. it's nice to have a little splurge to keep our morale up though heheh
edit: i should have gotten another quiche, damn theyre so good
I hate it when companies take 10,000 years to upload the prefill data. Like, I get there are legit reasons why it takes a while, but also, hurry up haha I hope they do it soon for you!!
We went to Victoria Hotel in Brunswick, got a jug of beer to share. I got the eggplant parma (which was fantastic), and mein liebe got the roast beef roll.
Also you just reminded me of the footy, thank you haha!
One day at a time. Peace of mind feels nice. A walk to the pride centre this morning should be good. I'm getting at least 6 or 7 ks walking every day sometimes quite unintentially so and I'm reaping the rewards. Losing belly fat and tightening the loose skin from loosing a ton of weight of last year. Finally cook my new stew today and do some aa. And of course play with the cats.
I have a new sense of absolute freedom now I'm working on sobriety. I'm glad it's uncool. I've never wanted to be cool or a part of mainstream society and never felt like I was a part of it anyway. Always been queer as fuck and always been alternative. A misfit and a punk but I've lost the anger of punk while retaining the passion to change the world from my own place in it. I also accept that certain things I cannot change but have the courage to change the things I can and act.
My life is completely involved in positive queer spaces, from work to my aa home group to my volunteer work. I feel so much less alienated from them than I used to because I'm not in the queer party scene. It also wasn't my scene. It's restricive, mysoginistic and very much a monoculture. I had an amazing queer family once 20 odd years ago but it was smashed apart by the suicide of one of us and it's when my substance abuse really took hold. I have brain damage from all the partying but getting my much needed oestrogen into my female brain is alleviating some a lot of it.
Stop it. You're not stupid because stupid people don't learn nothing and that's not you and we don't always have to be productive. We are not machines. Go easy on yourself. ♥
Thank you <3 I'm hoping next week is better. The last few weeks has been tough adjusting to a new work environment and when I feel insecure and anxious sometimes I just want to do stuff to keep busy but you're right I just need to chill and take a little break once in a while.
Being unproductive (how ever you define it) does not diminish your worth as a human being. You are smart, capable, kind, and awesome! You do good things. It is okay to feel unproductive, to put off doing some things, etc, we struggle but we must be kind to ourselves. I promise, you are not stupid.
edit: as CEO said, we are not machines. Please take it easy on yourself, friend
Thank you for your kind words...yes I'm probably being too hard on myself. I feel guilty sometimes if I'm not filling up my time doing "useful" things but I shouldn't really and I think the last few weeks have been a bit stressful so I should just let myself take a break.
Pick something to do, go do it. Tidy up a room or something. Just a small quick win can pull you out of a funk surprisingly well. Even a half assed job was more than it was before you started.
Thanks right now maybe just tidying up the bed before I go lol. I got myself all wrinkly soaking in the bath for almost 45 mins and I think I feel better now. Hoping tomorrow and next week is better.
Everything everyone is saying is true. You’re just having a slightly off time which we all have at some times, sometimes more than once, that doesn’t make you stupid, you are far from it. It’s not fun, but try not to be too hard on yourself hugs ☀️
There’s supposed to be some Sun on Monday. I recommend 10 mins of pure Vitamin D
Thank you...I'll make sure I get some fresh air and sun. There's been a lot on my mind and my brain's been in overdrive. I haven't been sleeping well and a bad dream about work last night woke me up so that certainly reflects my state of mind. hug
Thanks sometimes I feel like there's really only two days to myself and it's never enough to recharge as well as get non work things done and it's a waste but I guess some times you just gotta do nothing so your body and brain takes a break from the constant churning...
I'm cooking hash browns. If I could change the world I would insist that cooking instructions on food products be in a larger print. One step at a time people.
What pisses me off is tiny white writing on a pale yellow background. I have to 1) put on my glasses, 2) stand next to the window or a strong light source, and 3) get out the magnifying glass AND I STILL CAN'T READ THE INSTRUCTIONS! I am all in favour of a minimum 10 pt typeface and a minimum standard of contrast. Or black writing on a pale background as standard operating procedure.
Growing up we used to microwave them in one of those blue cornflower pattern Corningware dishes. I honestly didn't know there was any other way until I was an adult
Oops.. got a call from a Sydney number.. was a guy with a thick Indian accent and the call quality was terrible so all I could make out was "Amazon", so I figured scam call. Then just as I was hanging up I heard a car beep twice through the phone which I also heard outside down on the street at the same time. I'd hung up on the Amazon delivery driver! My buildings' concierge must have been not at his desk so he tried calling me. All sorted now though, I have my 3 x AU to US power adaptors and my new computer chair cushion safe and sound.
neil gaiman has been my writer crush since I read American Gods. I have his short story collections, I love him so much. As a young teen I wanted to be his goth gf haha
edit: i have his graveyard book and comic as well. sorry, im just an ancient Tumblr Neil Gaiman fangirl
I've seen a couple of adaptations of his works, but never got into his writing outside of GO for some reason. Just couldn't click.
Farkin' massive Pratchett fan though. I'm going into s2 with reservations, but willing to give it a shot, half of ep3 and the entire back end of Good Omens the series was created from whole cloth
Team, I need some advice. My boss dumped on me yesterday that she wants me to fire an employee who has been with the business for 5 years, however she wants me to tell this employee that I made the decision to fire them and to not mention under any circumstances that she has asked for it to be done. I'm really not ok with this as I see it as me being thrown under the bus and being made to look like the bad guy, i think it also shows a complete lack of integrity and also cowardice on the part of my boss.
The employee in question has had some behavioural problems which have existed since he started years ago, but they only seem to an issue for my boss now. I personally don't think that this employee has done anything severe enough to warrant termination and my boss absolutely doesn't want to provide this employee opportunity to improve or correct the behaviour. I'm at a loss as to what to do, because I think if i am honest with this employee and tell them that it was owners decision to fire them, I will most likely be on the chopping block as well when my boss finds out. Everyone at my work is casually employed so I can be dismissed without notice. I've felt for some time that my boss is a covert narcissist or at the very least has a toxic personality and this pretty much sealed the deal for me. I feel like resigning over this but have no savings and will need to try and find another job. I just don't know what to do.
@just_kitten@Outlier1031 agree. get your leaving plan together asap, that is a shitty thing to do, I'd talk to Fair Work about it asap, that kind of action is the job of a FULL TIME manager, not a casual staff member, regardless of your role. Get something about the duties you have in writing if possible.
Thanks, i've emailed very reasonable response being like 'so fair work says' and made it about protecting the business. Hopefully she sees reason. But i think i may have effectively checkmated her if she tries to give me grief.
While it’s true that casual employees can be dismissed without notice, they can’t just be let go without following the correct procedures. I worked in retail for years and the way the company dealt with getting rid of people was to just decrease the amount of hours they got. If they wanted to actually sit someone down and say ‘you’re fired’, they needed to have followed all of the procedures, such as giving them written warning and putting them on improvement plans. Without that, the worker was fully within their rights to file for unfair dismissal. So before doing anything on behalf of your shitty boss, I would make sure that the procedure has been followed to a t. If any step is missing, or they’ve never given them a written warning (written, as well. Not verbal. There’s no paper trail for verbal), etc, then you wash your hands of that situation. Because if they choose to escalate it, it’s your ass that’s on the line, not your boss’s.
Are you even in an official managerial position that allows you to dismiss people?
So to clarify, I am the Store Manager and I report in to the director of the business who is the one asking me to do this. I absolutely agree regarding following the correct process. As I mentioned, the employee hasn't done anything to warrant instant dismissal but has probably behaved in the way that warrants a sit down and verbal warning. It's also behaviour that the owner has allowed to continue for 5 years without giving warnings verbal or otherwise, so the employee would absolutely be within his rights to go to fair work. I imagine the owner is getting me to do it so it's my ass that stomped and not hers.
Can you tell your boss you don’t want to do it? With whatever reason will resonate best with your boss. Your boss sounds like a rubbish boss. I once had to fire someone, and it was a hard thing to do, even though I knew it was best for the team. But I owned it and did it as respectfully as I could. No way should that be dumped on anyone else. Time to brush up the resume and keep an eye out if something better comes up. Stay in your job for the income until you are ready, but of course that depends on if your mental health can cope.
Yeah I personally think she is a covert narc there's been a few signs since I started. I've had to fire people many times in the past but i always made sure to follow the correct process.
Holy shit. Don't do it and get something in writing too if you can, like make your reply in writing rather than verbal but reference what you were asked to do. Sounds to me like the director isn't just gutless but manipulative enough for you to be the target if the employee responds with aggression, legal action etc. I'd also bet that the director would stab you in the back and act all sympathetic to the employee.
Thank you. I sent an email to the director this afternoon outlying how the proposed course of action is a risk to the business and proposed performance managing the employee and making sure we have done everything right in the eyes of Fair Work. If they don't listen I'll then hit them with the fact I could be personally liable for not following due process and I'm not prepared to do that.
Fruit toast has been acquired. I accidentally turned the toaster TO THE MAX when cleaning it last time and switched it off just in time so it's a tad burnt but all good.
I picked up a glass tube straight out of a furnace, it wasn't glowing but it was bloody hot. A few hundred Cs. For a few weeks my hand looked like that nazi guy from raiders of the lost ark, seared into a grasp shape. It was fairly painful. Luckily no scars.
The danger of heat can't be seen with eyes, it has to be learnt well for each situation.
We have an unwritten rule in the house that anything in the kitchen that's hot from the oven gets a towel or mitt thrown over it, but I should have known better than to assume. All good now.
I think I got to the cold tap quickly enough to avoid any damage, still stings tho. On the plus side, I have no fingerprints on 3 out of 5 digits - what should I do with this superpower?
I made toast this morning. Why is that significant? Because I used the last slices of a loaf of bread I bought which never happens, actually finishing an entire loaf. I also only ever buy bread maybe once a year.. not sure why, I like bread. I just don't buy it. Maybe because I never finish it? Not sure.
Anyway, I made toast this morning.
Now I'm looking at Google Maps trying to decide if I feel like going on a road trip/overnighter somewhere. What to dooooo...
I believe I still have 1/3 of a loaf in the freezer which I never revisited, possibly from 2021. I'm honestly ok with never buying bread though. Probably for the best if I limit my bread intake.
So the other day I got a box of tofu from the shop, forgot about it and left it on the counter for about 4 hours before I realised and chucked it back in the fridge. It's okay right...right?
I don't know if I just have a friendly face or something but I got on the train (with seconds to pass) sit down in a 4x4 that was available but it had someone sitting on the other seat (I can't sit in the 2x2 seats because they're too tight). And my seat mate couldn't stop talking to me.
She was very lovely and spoke about her kids and such, but I just wanted to listen to my podcasts 😔. I'm too nice for my own good 😮💨
I must have a aurora that says "old ladies speak to me", because at Caulfield this old Vietnamese lady gave me her phone, and I'm guessing her son maybe or someone close to her told me "can you please help her get to Springvale". So I'm like showing her my phone of terrible Google translate Vietnamese trying to help her. Luckily I was going past Springvale so I helped her and she got off. I did my best.
Possibly. Like I'd feel rude if I didn't say anything to to the woman from this morning and the Vietnamese woman. But yeah I hope I get some karma, not that I did it for the karma.
Ordered a pumpkin pesto pizza that had a truly over the top amount of cracked black pepper all over it, plus under the pumpkin as well. It wasn’t listed on the ingredients. Pepper gives me a stomach ache, so I spent ages picking off as much as I can before eating it. Tell me if you agree that this is a shitload of pepper:
Description: a slice of pizza with a slice of pumpkin lifted up to reveal a lot of cracked black pepper underneath it.
I diagnose the top/bottom/grinder bit came off the pepper grinder while pizza was under construction. The berries are hardly crushed at all, and there are far too many of them.
Getting rid of my video game stuff has definitely helped me spend more time making music.
I do miss just zoning out and enjoying games, but in the end I kept choosing them over other important stuff like going out and seeing people.
Here's a song I've been working on tonight. It's just a sketch but it has potential I think. Criticism of any form is welcome!
https://soundcloud.com/reefsteele/the-branch-or-the-tree
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Holy hell I am hungggggover. Drinking three glasses of wine before dinner and eating ice cream after is not a good combo for me as I basically had my head in the toilet all night. World, please go gentle on me today!
Lying in bed not wanting to get up. I have to do day 20 of my exercises but my foot is still really sore. Yesterday was a rest day thankfully, but I still did some tummy exercises. It seems a tiny bit better every morning but by the end of the day it's bad again. I'd love to know what I did to it!
I'd love to just stay my in bed all day but I'd also love to go to the farmers market and I have to buy shoes for one of the mini peelers. Looks like I'll get up and go hobbling around.
Yesterday I came home and Mr Peeler had reorganized the furniture in the house under the guise of cleaning. He loves to do it and I hate it when he does. I can never find anything in this house anymore, it's really frustrating. Also he just put a big pile of stuff that doesn't fit anywhere in the hallway for us to step around/trip over.
Bought a roast chook in the new ‘southern style’ flavour from Coles. Couldn’t tell much flavour difference in the meat, but stuffing was nice. I normally buy roast chook from local charcoal chicken shop, I prefer the flavour and quality. Got sucked in at Coles because they were fresh out of the oven and smell was wafting as I walked by.
Whenever I feel under pressure, I seem to forget everything I like and become a giggly nervous mess who can't string 3 words together. It's terrible. I totally get this, ugh. You know the answer, but the brain is a tricksy asshole sometimes lol
Andrew Young is one of my favourite presenters. He's got such high brow taste and seems aloof at first but when you listen on a bit he's so down to earth with his listeners. Jazz on Saturday is my reward for when I wake up early enough on Saturday (which was not this week, alas).
If this weather makes you long for some Christmas cheer, try this massively underrated lovely little Burt Bacharach tune about The Bell That Couldn't Jingle
If you are going to have a conversation, please don't have it from the 2nd floor of your balcony to people on the ground. I don't want your shitty conversation echoing across the car park.
And what's with the traffic today? It's fucking shit and the supermarkets are packed.
I love my mother, but sometimes I think you could ask her if the sky is blue, and she'd look straight down at the ground and tell you the grass is green.
Every Friday Nights we finish with Semisonic - Closing time. Whenever friends and family hear this on the radio they think of us. Whenever I hear it on the radio I think it's weird.
They played it at closing time at one of the climbing gyms I used to go to with a friend. Apparently the lyrics are about childbirth or something like that...
A culinary question. If a chunk of honeycomb (the bee one, not the lolly one) is served on a cheese platter, how is it meant to be eaten? Do you put it on a cracker with the cheese? What about the wax, eat or spit? Or is it for decoration only and don’t touch it?
Love chewing on the wax forever but I always end up spitting it out in the end. I love honeycomb. It's such a primal way of eating honey and it feels satisfying.
I've never eaten proper honeycomb but I've wanted to for ages. I wonder if I could find some at the south melbourne market if I went for an adventure over there tomorrow.
If they consider the Australian external territory of Norfolk Island to be a “country” for the purpose of listing New Zealand’s neighbours, why don’t they consider the British overseas territory of Gibraltar, which shares a land border with Spain, to be one of its neighbours? Also, it’s only 13 km from Spain to Morocco across the Strait – that’s got to count as a neigbour – and Algeria isn’t far away, either.