Thank you for the kind words earlier Friends, I'm feeling a lot more okay now. Sometimes my brain gets carried away.
I did things that cheered me up and that really helped, made some cheesy potato cake thingys and planted one of my propagated monsteras in a pot and changed the pot of another plant and that all made me feel better. I'll have to relax tonight and put a face mask on and do some graphic design/drawing so I can get my Lizzo T-shirt and/or bag done in time.
I have some face masks in my makeup cabinet I haven't used. I really need to pamper myself a bit more methinks. I have a bath for heck's sake. Glad you're feeling better, we have a wonderful little vibe going on here and it's heartwarming to just now read all the messages of support you got this morning. Good luck with the drawing, Lizzo is amazing.
Mashed potato mixed with cornflour, with cheese stuffed in the middle and pan fried. from this tiktok I just didn't add sugar, but I added garlic powder, salt, and pepper into the potato.
Just got out of bed, feeling a bit fried
Interview later, I wonder if I'll be hired
The cat slept with us, and now he's yowling
Though he's been fed, he thinks his tummy's still growling
Curled up on the couch, heater in my face
I'm anxious about this employment race
It's hard to talk myself up when I'm so iffy
But I'll clean myself up, looking so spiffy
I'll cage up the thoughts that hold me back
And when I get home, I'll have a panic attack
As long as I can hold it until after I'm done
I'll nail this appointment, and then I'll have won.
Sometimes I feel like an absolute void of nothingness, no one truly cares for ME, no one reaches out via message, I hang out with friends sometimes, but we're not super close. I just feel alone.
Improve your relationship with yourself. Be the person you need you to be.
Easier said than done right? It used to shit me too, but why DONT we love ourselves? Cause in the end, at the very very end, we’re all we got.
I have done a lot of work on loving myself and I'm most of the way there but I do still struggle with not having people around me that care. I spend a lot of time with myself and I'm great company but I do like other peoples company as well.
<3 I totally feel you. I'm very much a stranger but sometimes talking to strangers is easier than people you know. So if you need a chat, don't be afraid to reach out.
Hey there misssdarylc. Sorry, I've been reading your posts for a long time but I've never taken the time to respond. I'll change that for what it's worth. I adore hearing about your love stories and struggles with navigating apps and trying to find a good way to find someone.
I'm sorry you feel alone, isolation is hard and I feel like most of my friends just aren't really there too much either. I had people cancel or defer plans twice this week already though at least one was due to illness. It's a bit disappointing honestly. I hope this reply can start at least some nice exchanges here. Nothing is stopping you from feeling the love I'm sending you right now through the ether.
Day 56 of The Diet. Scales said "That'll do, Raven. That'll do."
Now it's time to eat ALL the things move to a sensible maintenance diet for a while, and focus on my weights routine and building up some muscle. Then four more sets of 5kg dieting interspersed with maintenance/exercise focus. I think this is a good plan, breaking it up into smaller achievable goals rather than trying to do it in one go. Easier to maintain motivation and not to burnout.
I think it is very sensible. Past efforts have usually involved trying to use the initial burst of motivation to lose weight quickly and do lots of exercise, which goes well for a while but is followed by burning out, giving up and putting weight back on. I think I am finally learning from my past mistakes🙂
Nice. Have you chosen the replacement, or do you you have shopping ahead of you?
I've been unable to decide between replacing and recovering my old lounge suite for about 5 years now! It currently has a cheap cover on top so you can't see the torn threads and has an old doona on top of the cushions to add some padding. I really need to do something about it.
Avoid Berkowitz, they were unbelievably shit when we got our new couch a few months back. Gas-lighting scumlords. Their argument was: "Chinese people put their sofas against a wall, so damage during shipping and wonky stitching on the back of the couch is to be expected". Arseholes.
That awesome feeling you get when past you is so organise, that it helps out future you. Nothing major just essential items that I need and haven’t been able to get a hand on. This has put me in such a good mood. Lol who am I to be this happy over an essential goods or two 😅
I’m loving the vibes but man am I an oddball 🤣🤣 I’m ok with it though. Hope you’re well buddy. Good to see you’ve come back a couple times and posting! 🙂
I thank past me at work all the time. Like full on look myself in the mirror saying "hey you there past me, look at you go, having the foresight to do x and everything, go you!" stuff. It's funny but scary.
Was making a dish with red wine as an ingredient last night. Purchased a $12 bottle that ended up being absolutely delightful. The meal was good too. I did go to bed a little buzzy, but no side effects today.
It'll be interesting to see what happens long term, especially after apps stop working. I am hoping that there will be enough creative people who move to alternative places that some small vibrant communities can form. I don't want the endless memes and scrolling of Reddit, to me an engaged group of 20 people would be better than 20,000 disengaged scrollers.
I think there will be a lot of confused people trying to access Reddit. We might get a few stragglers but I think word of mouth is better for getting people involved - ie messaging them to come over.
@Kwikxilver@StudChud I'm glad too (as a mildly active occasional ex-Redditor, but a very active Fedi user). But sorry Briswegians aren't doing the necessary work to try Fedi - because it IS work to do so and needs a critical mass of users to stand their ground, and notify people of a genuine move. I'm likely to be more active in here than I ever was on Reddit, and it hasn't been as annoying as I'd expected in my main Mastodon feed.
I feel a bit weird stimulating that community myself, because I don't live there any more. It was really nice to keep up with what was going on! And some people do post on Lemmy...but not enough.
Centrelink stopped accepting medical certificates, so I have to do mutual obligations. The DES people want me to apply for 8 jobs that I'm not qualified for every month. They're meant to help me pay for education but according to the guy I have appointments with, they'll only pay half of the course fees.
Also, why the fuck is "free" TAFE allowed to charge so much extra fees? It's not free if I have to pay $510.
I'm just sorta fucked, I suppose. Not sure what I can do, or will do.
I've completed day 2 of exercise regimen and it feels good so far. They're just equipment free 10 minute little workouts, and because they're 10 minutes I can easily say to myself, "oh let's do one now, I've got no excuse to not fit it in." It gets the blood pumping without being too taxing. Can't do in front of Mr Peeler though 👀
A lot of workout people (who aren't dicks) will say even just 10 minutes of movement is good. I need to get back into working out, might do it tomorrow before work. Only thing I hate is that I use Ring Fit to work out and the way they calculate time annoys me. Half an hour of continuos workout is actually an hour real time.
Nice work. I find small amounts at home much easier to fit in (and convince myself to do) as well. I do have weights at home, and like doing the heavy weights that need rest between sets - it works really well to mix in with basic cleaning or meal prep. Instead of staring at the wall for a few minutes like I would in a gym I can go and chop a carrot or something.
Am I the only person getting annoyed that James Cameron is all over the news about the Oceangate incident. I mean I get he's an avid ocean explorer, have done the trip many times, and made the damn film but I feel like we should hear from an actual engineer.
uh, cameron is the engineer to speak to on this. Dude helped design and build Deepsea Challenger and he's pretty much responsible for everything Titanic related since Ballard's dive.
The best option would probably be to ignore it (this is the first I'm hearing of it), not speak about it and not give them any more of a platform than they already have/not make them richer through clicks.
Yeah ain't no way Elon is doing this. His fanboys will still claim victory though. Zuck is a BJJ beginner but isn't actually terrible at it. My money would be on lizard-boy for sure.
The unit outline for my next uni subject (sustainable design for houses) was released today & I'm pretty happy with what the main assignments involve. I'll basically be making a plan for my own future housing, which is what I want to do for myself anyway & a large part of why I was interested in this course.
Insulation, double glazing, plus appropriate orientation and shading to not heat up like an oven in summer. The course also looks at issues like ventilation and air quality, condensation and mould, heating water and power use etc. Affordabilty and similar issues are also looked at, which is definitely an issue I need to consider.
[update] The 7:00 bus arrived at 7:14 with nobody on it (apart from the driver). I don't know if he'll make it to the train station in time for me to catch the 7:16 connecting train...
I tend to avoid posting negative comments so... thanks for listening.
Ugh, I hate that. Happens a lot. It's not so bad when I was on the Frankston line because I could catch a train 10 mins later, but being on the Pakenham line it's a 20 min wait. Which I mean I'd rather that then deal with the 50-min to 1hr 20 bus wait when I used to live on the peninsula.
Cool glass of Rosé, relaxing on the sofa
Brain's overthinking, turning over and over.
Be cool and calm, composed, assured,
Each fear is stretched and twice measured.
Turned out and raw for the world to see,
Memories sliced up, trauma-sushi
Roll me in rice, in seaweed, I'm salty
Dip me in soy sauce and light green wasabi
Chopsticks and lips, full of umami,
Size me up, please put a fork in me
I'm done 👌🏼
My mind is quietening down. I am learning to shut up and listen with intent for the first time in my life. I've stopped running on caffiene and now enjoy afternoon naps and to wake up to find that my cats have crept onto the bed and are sleeping beside me afterwards fills me with joy.
I still need some time off job hunting to work on my recovery but it's going really well so far. One day at a time. I think to bang on the benefits of joining aa is probably unnecessary but I will I've felt more love from the new people I've met in the program than I've felt from most of my real life friends in the last I don't know how many years. I've also found better support for my transition here than in any other place other that I sought out and got myself through professional services. I spent so much time in my community last week I can still feel the euphoria as well, but their support is automatic, yours is a something I am truly grateful for as it's coming from strangers who may or may not know about the incredible personal journeys we go through in the early stages of hormome replacement therapy.
Thank you all, except the person who downvotes all my comments, no thanks for you but no malice toward you either, what you think about me is none of my business.
It sounds like you're gradually getting to a good place! I'm glad this community has been there to support you and that you're finding people to show you that outside of it as well. The offer stands in reverse, I'm here to chat whenever you need, so please feel free to message me.
one of those days where chronic pain moves from "meh I'm used to it" to "I shall bite people"
so of course it's the day the cats have decided to be Royal Fucking Arseholes
(this isn't mood colouration btw, Punkin is obsessed with going under my desk and fucking around behind the file server - something he has never, in his entire twelve years of life been allowed to do. I've pulled it out, there's nothing behind it, he's just got a bug up his arse. And when told off goes into the kitchen and starts pushing things off the counter in retaliation)
Oh my god. Found a box of box of ritz and a 2 bottles of red in the cupboard.
Got so excited I cracked the shiraz open and just poured a glass. Went down so well. Hope it’ll last a couple of days without going weird in taste so I can stretch it out for a few days.
I had some left over pork and beef mince. I added some onions and a can of Campbell's beef bolognese sauce and the scraps from the tomato sauce bottle. Paired it with beef ravioli and some herbs and spices. It came out alright.
Girly's not eating with us because she's got some sort of mange. It could be my imagination but my throat is getting sore. We shall see tomorrow.
Ditched Woolies mobile. Decided the saving wasn’t worth it if it didn’t work. Back in Telstra and my phones back in full working order. Can’t believe the difference a proper internet connection makes to the lack of lag!
I'd recommend you take a look at Boost Mobile (unless you've just signed up for 12+ month plan in which case RIP). I was Telstra for many years and recently switched to Boost when I saw Telstra was yet again bumping up their plan prices. Now my phone bill is around half on Boost and it uses the full Telstra network (as in, the same one as Telstra does, not the one they sell to other companies to use). Literally the only difference is I'm paying less considering Telstra moved their month to month plans to a pre-paid direct debit model, which is how I have Boost set up too.
Oh but I don't get "Telstra Plus" points.. but their shop is filled with garbage anyway unless you have mega points.
I just got one of the 10 dollar boost sims for now cause my recharge expired today. I love boost, but it was always JUST short of my data needs. Not stoked about 35 bucks per month but the extra data might just be enough.
Yeah, I had a USB wifi adapter a couple of months ago and it made streaming so bad for some stupid reason. Like YouTube was fine, but Twitch or streaming services was garbage. Decided to shell out for a 6G internal wifi adapter and man it's so good having decent internet.
Yeah! Intermittent is the right word I think. YouTube was oddly ok for streaming but images were iffy. However safari really really struggled and internet banking wasn’t much better. Dunno why it was so bloody bad.
My $10 plan got increased to $12.50, but given that groceries went up my -10% gets the $2.50 extra.
I don't think the base plan has been available for a while, so it's interesting they increased a grandfathered plan, rather than dropping all together.
My phone has two sim-slots, calls/SMS are set to go thru Woolworths Mobile, with data from a data only SIM. You can get a $15 / 20GB with unlimited 1MBPS after cap from Belong, which is a subsidiary of Telstra, using the Wholesale network.
Is belong better though? Cause Woolies was Telstra wholesale as well, and I gotta be honest it was freakin dreadful. And Telstra/boost don’t do a good data only sim.
Lmao someone or something has it out for me right now, just got the report back from a car I had inspected and it's another no go. I have looked at 6 cars, and had 3 of them inspected, and all have been duds in one way or another. It's not even like I'm looking on the low end, I've a little over 20k to burn, surely things should be decent for that price.
Think I might need to come up with a strategy as I'm getting invited to a lot of non work hours social stuff in this new job. I really just want people to know that's off limits for me without being impolite, getting pressured into going, or not "fitting in"
Good morning folks, hope y'all had a great weekend! I built my Nissian Skyline GT-R Lego set and it looks great. Now I just need to see where to put it... somewhere on my bookshelf.
So happy that doggo slept through the night! Before we took her in for surgery she would wake up every night between 4-5am needing to throw up. Post-surgery she would get the crazies after 1am - crying, running around, wanting to go outside to do her business/throw up (sometimes all at the same time). Vet examined her/did bloodwork and said nothing suspicious came up so we figured it was due to her being in pain. Fingers crossed she's now on the mend (and that we can actually get some sleep this week).
I just learned about monkeytype which is a simple typing test site to test your keyboard kung-fu. My first attempt and Bing tells me I'm a pro.. noice. Thanks, years of all-night mIRC when I was a teenager! Back in those days I could type flawlessly without looking at the keyboard OR screen, including ALT codes for ASCII symbols. And my dad told me I was wasting my life... LOOK AT ME NOW, DAD!
My partner got me to do this early on when we were dating. I think he wanted to show off his mad tying skills but little did he know that my claim of "addicted to the internet to the point I have brain worms" wasn't just me being cute. I definitely schooled him
nice one! i tried to switch from my hacky typing to proper home row touch typing last year, got ok but not great, need to get back into practice as i ended up using a hybrid method for work. monkeytype definitely my favourite of the tutorial sites. give english 10k a spin if you want to stretch
87 WPM for me (timed 30 secs). Though it goes down to 80 WPM when you add just punctuation, then 72 WPM when you add just numbers. Both numbers and punctuation? 64 WPM. Ouch.
Something is going very strange with pictures on my tablet. I clicked the link and it took me to a photo of a computer on a desk. I was very puzzled. Exited and tried the link again and I got beach, which makes much more sense.
It's a bit more buggy actually. I gone back to Jerboa for the moment. I'll use sync when it comes out though. I expect that'll be pretty polished at first release.
I'm looking at the Financial Review online, and have just noticed that where other papers have a section for "money" they have a section for "wealth". Definitely a different clientele.
Edit: I just read an article stating that investors are starting to wonder whether owning a holiday home is "still" part of the Australian Dream. I am startled to learn that people ever thought it was.
I've never heard of a holiday home being an Australian Dream. I assumed it was similar to the American one, buy a house and live there until you're dead.
That was what I always thought. But apparently Financial Review readers dream of having their own house, another house for holidays, millions in super, and a hefty investment portfolio. And it is not so much a dream as something they see as a reasonable expectation. How the other half (1/20th?) live.
I forgot to have my morning coffee yesterday. Around lunchtime I felt like ten pounds of shit in a five pound bag. Took another few hours to realize why I felt like that. Ended up not having one, but it was a struggle.
A few weeks ago I had the worst headache of my life. I’m not kidding. Multiple Panadol did nothing. I felt like I’d been hit by a truck. I thought I was having a migraine or I maybe Covid or the flu was coming on. Then I realised that I’d been too busy to have my usual morning coffee.
Had one and the headache was gone in 5 minutes.
It was the first time that I was like “shit… maybe I should cut back.” But the threat of a headache like that again is enough to keep me drinking it
Does anyone else think about orcas wearing hats? Ever since I read the story, and saw the pics, I've been wondering what other silly fads they have and does this mean The Little Mermaid is a documentary?
Some items in the news about teenage male orcas attacking boats off the coast of Spain etc. Been going on for months now. Some narrow escapes for the boats.
So yesterday I'm listening to a podcast where chicken curry pies are mentioned, then today I see your post. I think the universe is trying to tell me something. Something delicious.
Apple says 11, BOM says 5. Decided to grab the beanie scarf and gloves on top of the jacket just in case. Good call. That wind makes it feel colder than it is.
Yeah, 0.18 really helps with server federation timeouts but no captcha is insane. Can you just disable signups temporarily until the next version is out?
How do actually identify bots? I know there is a box you can check to indicate a bot, but if that does not get checked is there a way to tell if the account gets used by bots?
Just saw a strange new worlds advertisement at Melbourne central. Bit of a waste of money no? Any Star Trek fan would’ve had the date memories right? Or at least spent all day going “what was I supposed to remember started back again?!” Like I did.
in side news, oh aussie.zone i wanna like you. no avatar accounts currently look busted - so i switched those off - the UX of the preference save is like a video game trap
ruh roh
(image of big red 'delete account' primary CTA button and grey chilling 'save' button)
really interesting ABC article re: a major con against the Aus Govt/the ATO
Edit: Can someone plz teach me how to do hyperlinks using the ['s and )'s ?
Edit 2: thanks Cendana!
[Rogue Kiriko](https://www.google.com/search?rlz=1CDGOYI_enAU1056AU1056&hl=en-GB&sxsrf=APwXEdetBy6KW0mzXBrc10gvgVyJ_L8qcg:1687756541141&q=Rogue+Kiriko&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwibkuiIl-D_AhUDRmwGHZbzCa4Q0pQJegQICxAB&biw=428&bih=751&dpr=3) for Rogue Kiriko
Does anyone know roughly what time station parking fills up at Camberwell station? Have to go into the city for work on Wed and need to park somewhere safe as I’ve got plans after work and won’t get back to the car until about 10.30pm.
today looked at quotes for car insurance, going with racv. no news about the ppsr, gave them till tomorrow so we sit and wait. then we go to vcat. anyway getting the new car on Thursday, most likely. yea finally can bring it home. arrange for a good front and back camera to be installed next week for it. other than that been getting things sorted.
In the democracy that is the DT on this platform, can anyone start the next DT? I'm not volunteering necessarily, there are far more reliable people than me to do it on time, but I was just curious.
Food please. And a caffeinated drink of vast proportions. Chef's selection will do fine as I'm not fussy.
Note to self : must do a food shop on the way home from work.
Another day of annual leave today as I was meant to be coming back from Sydney. Canceled the trip, but not the annual leave because I'm once again mad at my workplace. Chickened out of having a chat with a recruiter last week, so it's really on me and I know that. However, a Monday off is not a bad Monday at all.
Can't decide if I want to stick with D4 or possibly dip my toes back into WoW. Dragonflight being 50% off at the moment is making it very, very tempting.
One of the places I write for, they also do a radio/podcast show. And I was invited onto it last weekend but couldn't because of plans, but I asked if next available slot I could be on and I suggested to talk about fat representation in video games. And it's been very interesting to read about because on one hand there isn't a lot of stuff about fat bodies in video games, it's really often the same 10 characters in a top ten list. But the videos and essays on the topic are fantastic.
It's something I'm super passionate about, talking about representation in media is very very important to me. My first show with them I spoke about accessibility in video games because it's something I will often talk about in my reviews. It's the first thing I always check when playing a game, while I don't have a lot of needs in that space, it's still important. So having a space to talk about fat characters in video games is going to be fun.
Anyways, thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.
Edit: And this is why I should be quiet about stuff like this... yay. Gonna go sleep forever ✌🏻
I've been watching Batman movies. I love the noir The Batman best. Even tho it's set in a cartoon world it seems the most real, maybe it's because the characters seem to be more real.
Did you start with the 89 Keaton Bat? I still think it's my favourite. A lot of that might be nostalgia from sneaking into the cinema to see it when I was 11 though.