Putting my kitty down this afternoon. Almost made it to 20. Very sad. On Xanax though.
Edit: thank you everyone. He’s gone now. We had an at-home service put him down. He went incredibly peacefully, purring loudly as the first injection went in.
We’re about to drive him to his brother’s grave (who died five years ago) and bury him there so they can forever snuggle.
Thanks for giving your kitty as good a life as you could. Don't let the end cloud your vision from the good times.
If/when you're ready, there are more lost souls to save out there. I wish I could have cats myself, but I am not stable enough to house them. Maybe some day I will foster, but even that is probably to much for me to handle.
Thank you for your kind words. He lived an incredible life. Working is going to be a lot more lonely without him constantly bothering me to snuggle with me all day.
When his brother died five years ago, he was so lonely… so we adopted two baby kittens so he could be their mum. He took to them immediately, cuddling and playing and loving them. I think that might have extended his life. They’re a little confused right now with him not moving, but we didn’t let him see his brother after he died, which I think was a mistake.
About to go drive to his brother’s grave to bury him with his brother so they can snuggle eternally.
Every day I go to all my part time jobs, and they take so much from me that I cannot recover what I've lost before the beginning of my next day of shifts.
Every day, I lose more and more of me. Until one day, there will be nothing left and I will quit one or all of my jobs and be unable to afford housing, and become homeless (again).
We're moving from the US to Denmark soon. We just had a hurricane destroy our city. We are fine, thankfully, but our city is in bad shape. I also just had a decently big surgery a few weeks ago and my doctor's office is gone, so in the midst of all this I have to find a doctor. Just coincidental timing on all of it.
But it's net positive. I look forward to the future more than I dread the bad stuff.
Is it that bad? I had thought the buildings would have mostly survived given the city was built to withstand them and that it was just too dangerous for people
How do you recover from that? Does insurance cover it?
I'm in Asheville NC not Tampa. We're not built for the hurricane we got.
Insurance covers very little. Not the fact that the city won't have water for months, nor access to you property, nor flooding for the majority of people, and many many businesses are gone
Last night I had a mild panic attack for no reason. I think it might have been induced by a mixture of beer and sugar, a combination I don't do very often.
I've just come out of a long term relationship with someone I thought I would have kids with. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow that wasn't enough for me and I wanted out. I still have no idea if I did the right thing, but at least we left as friends who care deeply for each other. The separation was slow and excrutiating but I think we're both on the road to healing.
I used to think that if two people love each other, that was enough, but I've come to realize than I wanted more than just love, I wanted to feel less lonely in my head, and a severe language barrier was preventing that from happening. With time, we might have gotten there, but with time, I also may have grown to resent her, and so that's why I ended it. I banked on my pessimism instead of my optimism.
Time heals all, and I guess we've just got to tread water until that time comes. Sorry for the word vomit above, your post apparently struck a chord with me
Heya man, thanks for sharing. I hope you're doing okay. That sounds tough, and it's a hard realisation that love isn't always enough on its own - relationships take work outside of love, and that has certainly felt like a disheartening realisation for me. It feels the world is a little less magic now, but that's okay - there are better things coming for us both, that we will be better equipped to handle correctly with what we've learned from this. Happy Monday!
Thanks! I actually did consider it but my landlady won't allow pets, and if I'm honest I both can't afford and am too disorganised to take good care of something living. Good suggestion, tho!
I wish I could work out like I used to when I was unemployed. I know it would give me more energy, but there is nothing left at the end of the day to invest into me and my health.
Whatever, who wants to live a long life anyways? Just more rent payments, more scammers, more assholes in my life.
That's good to know.... I have the same feelings whenever I go back home from college... like college is good but nothing is cozier or nicer than being able to rest after a busy day
On Tuesday I had a panic attack when I got in to work at 9am. It didn't last long, only about 15-20 minutes, but I still don't feel quite right even now. That's usually the case with my panic attacks, it takes a while for me to reset afterwards. Sometimes weeks.
Right now I have this tense feeling in my head, which causes my jaw to tighten up and get an impulsive twitch. Usually seems to happen when I'm feeling anxiety. I have an urge to chew on something soft.
That's annoying... just the thought of catching a cold is annoying to me : headaches, constant sneezing, heat and such things .... I hope you get better soon
I feel terrible because I didn't buy even a card for my wife's birthday. I just took her to her mother's house. This was two weeks ago. I am still baffled why I didn't buy flowers or something. My wife isn't demanding at all.
Bored. I'm out on my anniversary tradition, which is going apple picking.. Except my other half immediately rolled out the picnic blanket and has been sleeping on me for the past hour.
It's sad to think of how the dynamics have changed over the past 10 years between us. It's almost like the brain hamster wheels have all fallen apart and what's left are only the most basic of human functions. It's days like today I wish my country had any kind of worthwhile mental health care.
It seem incredibly unlikely anymore. Schizophrenia is a hell of a thing and getting the appropriate amount of support for anything like this that has a spectrum of severity is absolutely not possible. Besides the professional help my other half doesn't seem very interested in improving their situation at all.
Since the last bout with COVID and subsequent bronchitis, I'm always exhausted and my lungs seem to hate me. It's slowly improving by the day but that's the worst bout of COVID I've had.
Fully vaxxed, other than the recent one for obvious reason
I failed college, which lead to me losing my job. I also lost my car. To top it all off, my girlfriend of 3 years left me while we were 10,000km away from home. Every single thing reminds me of her. I haven't had the strength to shower in a week. I wish I had a car so i can drive into a concrete block at 200km/h and obliterate my worthless body. I love her so much.
Eh. I have thing going on that I'm looking forward to, trying to keep my head up with things, but right now there's this issue that's putting a shadow over everything.
I try to talk to the person involved, but they've kept at it to this point where I don't want to be around them. I've tried to be gentle about it, but it's like everything I said gets forgotten in a week and I'm the bad person for putting my foot down after.
I think it feels worse because I know what I need to do, but it's going to make a lot of things very difficult, and it's going to take accepting that someone who was very important in my life isn't the person I knew when we reached that point. That neither of us are.