Second last walk / ball throwing adventure for hams.
3 days of 1.5hrs of pure ball throwing until he refuses in the morning, 1.5hrs of ball throwing / socialising with other doggos in the evening seems to be a solid strategy with him.
Also had a pug and sausage dog have a go at him and he freaked out a bit which is a bit ridiculous. The pug was so imbred it could hardly breathe.
then he complains about leaving the dog park only to walk home at a snails pace and collapse in the kitchen.
Incoming pity party: made it to the interview stage of a role that I really felt aligned so well with my skillset only to be told today that again, I was the runner up and there was just someone better. I really had to fight the urge not to full-on cry on the phone when they told me because I was so devastated. I was basically manifesting in my head my future with this job all week (probably not the best idea) because I thought I was such a good candidate and thought the interview went well. It's very rare for these roles to appear that suit my experience so I really felt almost like it was made for me but now all that hope is....gone. The only feedback they could give was just it went to someone who had different organizational skills so now I feel like maybe I just suck at what I do if there's people out there who can do it better.
Could they give you any further or more specific feedback? It’s so difficult when that happens, but given what you’ve said I don’t think it would hurt to say that and try to get some more information?
Hopefully this just means a better opportunity elsewhere for you. 🤞🏻
My shingles is scabbing, but due to the location it keeps cracking open and weeping, and it's making me fucking miserable. Also, keeping the heating on to keep me warm while I can't really wear a shirt is making my skin awfully dry, which is making my other skin problems play up.
I just want it to be over, but I was warned it may be a long time before that happens... ughhhhhhhhhhh
I’ve hit serious burnout. Can hardly function. Weekends spent resting. According to the self care podcasts I listen to, I should schedule a getaway somewhere nice to unwind for a week or two. Lol.
No leave - new job. Too much responsibility at home to be able to walk away. What am I supposed to do? Monthly therapy isn’t helping. Mindfulness can get stuffed. Thankful for my cat.
I’m the strong person who pushes though, and people say “you’ll be fine, you’ll work it out, you’re the smart person” etc. I just can’t.
If you find your hands are full - start dropping things.
seriously. Just consciously dropping things because your hands are too full can be incredibly relieving. And when the world doesn't end it releases even more.
Just make sure you're dropping the rubber balls and not the glass ones :P
As someone who is recovering from this I did something similar with podcasts. I also kept a spreadsheet as opposed to journaling to be brutally honest to myself about how things might be compounding and how past things were sliding to the forefront as a lot of unwanted things were taking over.
I couldn’t bring myself to do full cold water immersion but because the majority of it was during the Winter cold water as much as I could stand (on my face) helped first thing in the morning. (If it had kept going I was going to try hands in ice water which supposed to help with stress and letting the body know you can handle it).
As far as tasks, I just did the absolute must do at home and allowed myself space. If I didn’t pressure myself with all the shoulds and musts then I would naturally do a few more things if I was up for it.
Some things had to change. For me I was lucky there was a temporary situation I didn’t realise was really contributing to it.
I also forgave myself for what I was conditioned to see as failing. Anxiety Rx podcast (while not all of it appealed to me) really helped in the sense of highlighting how common it can be for people who have relied on certain tools or ways of managing things to eventually find out that those tools no longer work. That was the bit that was really hard for me. When you are in your head a lot and function a certain way, you rely on yourself, and to reach out and find nothing there is… (I mean more in relation to our own energy/strength/resilience.) Yeah, it’s hard. I wouldn’t wish it on people and it can manifest in ways that make it challenging to identify as burnout.
Can you find just a little bit of time out just for you? A walk? A sit under a tree? Sometimes I park a street back from after school care just to have 10 minutes between work and Mum duties. Sometimes I play music while I'm parked (either very heavy or something really light and classical) Sometimes I lay the seat back and just..... stop and exist in quiet. It's not really enough but it all helps.
Sigh I think I'm about to get dressed and go to impulse-buy a PS5 coz the Spider-Man 2 bundle is on sale and I want it. I guess it's not an impulse-buy considering I've thought about it for months but I didn't plan on buying a PS5 today or even this year when I woke up this morning.
Let's just call it a reward for having my apartment and car clean and my life more organised or something.
Beautiful moment in the CBD. At the tramstop at the top end of Collins st waiting for my tram. On the opposite tramstop a late middle aged gent in jeans and a band tshirt with fairy wings on his back - dancing to music only he could hear. And the son of a gun could dance pretty good. Felt like joining in, but was carrying too much shopping.
I tripped over at work yesterday and I thought I'd hurt my wrist but the pain today is just below my elbow, so I'm off to the doctor and to hopefully get an X-ray. It's my right arm and I'm right handed so that's annoying and my arm is getting sorer and sorer. I'm lucky I filled in an incident form for the fall. I really hope it's not serious but the pain is serious enough I'm worried it is.
I definitely will, I'm back at the doctor on Monday and will make sure he gets the ball rolling, I ended up booking a different doc at the same clinic because the one I saw on Friday truly didn't seem to grasp my job and how much I need to use my arms and lift and how serious an arm injury could be for me.
Finished binding the edges of my fave quilt, it was getting a bit frayed, and then washed it. More masks have been made. Made some scones for afternoon tea. Still heaps to do. 🥴
I love making quilts. Crochet, Tunisian crochet, knit, patchwork. I give them all away. Here's one I made my daughter because she loves geography and flags and stuff.
1964 The House Of The Rising Sun The best karaoke song of all time. You bet I belted that one out. The door's open so the neighbours got to hear. Lucky ducks.
P.S. Everytime I call for an intermission the man plays Metallica.
If its available, Do Wah Diddy is a super easy option. You only have to sing every second line (the crowd will enthusiastically fill in the rest), the vocal range required is really easy, and the song only goes for 2 minutes.
My last girlfriend before I met my wife was Filipina and well, the Karaoke stereotype in that community is real. I had to build a small repertoire of things I could be dragged out to sing.
So much to do and it's already one of those days. I sewed a button onto the wrong side of the cuff. 🤓 Bought dark green ribbon for a belt instead of black
Two interviews lined up for today. Just when I had decided I was going to try the world of freelancing, my current work asked if I was interested in doing a secondment outside of my organisation (which could turn into a permanent job). Maybe I am. AND then a job I applied for a while ago has come out of the woodwork. Is the world trying to tell me something?
Welp... I bought a PS5 during my lunch break. Now to be fair, it's $679, the disc version AND I get Spider-Man 2 for free (for non-gamers, Spider-Man 2 came out less than a month ago and it's usually priced between $100 and $125 depending on where you get it from). I mean I put it all on Afterpay, but I only have to spend $169.75 every fortnight so yay!
Besides I also don't have to a) borrow my partner's PS5 when I put my hand up to review a PS5 game for my 2nd job b) when PS5 exclusive games are up for review I can actually do it without having to worry about a. and c) Play PS5 games when I want and don't have to wait every 2nd weekend for my partner to bring their PS5 or I go to their place and play it.
Though funnily enough, I did complain on Mastodon about how much I hate that Black Friday is becoming a thing here in Australia and then I go and buy a PS5. To be fair... JB's deal thing isn't called Black Friday so...
I wish I could put it as a work expense. It's a volunteer position, so while I see it as a job, it's not a paying job (which is fine, I knew that going in, but I get video games in exchange so yeah). But man that'd be so bloody helpful!
Edit: Okay looked at your comment about you picking one up, but like totally agree with you on the whole "not so much an impulse purchase, but also kind of is" because yeah I knew that once I got my job I would look into getting a PS5 (also looking into the ROG Ally, but hopefully we'll get news about the Steam Deck coming to Aus... one of these days), but I didn't think today I would get it. But well look at that! Very keen to pick mine up tomorrow (or today I guess), annoying thing is, is that it doesn't fit in our TV console. It's one of those Ikea 1x1 square shelving unit things on its side.
Lots of sweet things please, to salve my pain and despair at this being the first day of my working week whilst half the rest of the world are celebrating it being their last.
The countdown is gonna begin soon. The theme: #1 Top billboard song of the year, of every year starting with 1950's Good Night Irene by The Weavers and ending in 2000.
Anyone want to guess a song and a year? Put your money on folks.
So I was looking at the Billboard #1 thing for uhm... unrelated reasons, and IIRC 1964 was I Want to Hold Your Hand by The Beatles, they also took #2 and a few other spots in the top 10 that year as well.
Noodling around and saw that old 7 Red Lines video turn up in suggested on YouTube. I clearly blanked out the INHUMANE PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE that is watching that video because I stupidly clicked and only made it halfway through before ragequitting and now I have all this pent up fury and trauma.
packing done, need to dismantle table and pack up my pc but shall do that early morning. sent a couple msgs to the airtasker dude to confirm the pick up tomorrow but no response and that's stressing me out :<
worst case, will ask a friend to get a van from bunnings (?) and help me move. gosh moving is so stressful!
This one was pretty cheap - $120 to move, but I don't have much stuff. A few boxes, a table and a chair and there's lifts on both sides. Fairly quick job.
Hello brains trust! Any cunning ideas what I can do with this? I’ve 3m of 150 and it is not a garment fabric. Lite hessian? Good for shopping bags but I certainly don’t need that many.
Damn FRL, is it happening or is it not, what a shambles. I'm gonna guess their usual council contact has changed and they've fucked up the permit application with no Mr Niceguy to smooth things over.
Hey... just throwing it out there. Is it possible to miss being diagnosed with something like Crohns even after seeing specialists for many years and finally getting thrown in the too hard basket?
Did anyone else in this situation ever get an answer?
It's always easy to miss things! I have a heart defect that was missed for years because it was constantly fobbed off as anxiety. It wasn't until I started seeing a nurse for something unrelated did someone genuinely start to question what was going on.
Turns out my heart isn't overzealous because I'm anxious, it's because it's making up for that fact it's got some issues it's trying to constantly correct on its own.