As someone who did 3 years of a physics degree and then ended up crashing and burning at the basic quantum stuff until I ultimately quit, I sympathize with this wholeheartedly. Like its fascinating and all, and its great that some people are able to get it, but like, if I have to deal with a Schrödinger equation again I think I might scream.
I love learning about quantum physics from YouTube, but my impression is a lot of it ends up being "particals are just silly little guys at the quantum level" or "we have two models: one for normal big physics and one for batshit crazytown tiny physics".