I had my care team meeting today. I think it went pretty well. It was fun watching the shitshow of blame games, as well as the external people who just seemed shocked this happened at all. It looks like my org will reimburse me for the security camera and door alarms though, so that's useful. It didn't actually cross my mind that I could probably either make them buy it, or to just reimburse me for it later. One of my support people in the meeting was just like "so let me get this straight: you purchased cameras and alarms to keep yourself safe, with your own money, even though it's their fault you have to worry about your safety in the first place?"
From tonight there's no more overnight workers which means I'm on my own again. I'm not feeling unsafe or scared anymore, I feel like even if he does come back, I can handle it. But after thinking on it more, I don't think he's the type who would come back. I mean, he broke into my room while I was away and only did it before he moved out, even though it's probably a logical fallacy on my part, that kind of just seems like cowardice. Plus, if he was planning on coming back, he probably would've by now
Hmm... Well, I'll see the area manager tomorrow afternoon, he'll probably tell me he's sorry for what happened but also it's not actually his fault at all and in a roundabout way, it's actually my fault. But that's probably about it
Through to an interview with second preference job, Friday lunchtime. I've already done online testing with great results and submitted a five minute video. I'm hoping this is more of a formality at this point. I am a great candidate
I could wear make-up and curl my hair,
Commence my glow-up and start to care,
I'd colour myself amongst the rainbow,
But what for and why? I don't know.
I want to be pretty like the girls on the net,
But I feel quite petty when my eyes set
Upon my face and the way it exists.
But what for and why? It just is.
Is it the web that makes me feel so bad?
All the cute girls on the street, I feel so sad.
I'm sure if I tried, I'd look like a queen,
But what for and why, so I could be seen?
I don't crave attention, I'll promise you that,
I like staying home with my coffee and cat,
Should I do it for me, and try to be pretty?
But what for and why? Now I sound petty.
Every nerve is fried. My heart is beating so fast, and the nerves in my neck twinge. I teleport around the apartment, quantum, fleeting. Electricity courses through my body in waves.
SNRI withdrawal is wild. 3/10, do not recommend. (A 3, because sometimes it feels like my brain is in freefall and it's almost pleasant).
I'll be fine, I have the meds now. The woes of executive dysfunction and supporting a local pharmacy that closes on Sundays. 🤦♀️
My one last morning volunteer shift is tomorrow, so up at 4am, off at 6am, start at 8am, finish at 12pm, should be home by 2ish-pm. Rest. Cleanup Wednesday in prep for MIL visit from Perth. Then TAFE on Thursday and Friday.
SNRI withdrawal rates 0/10 in my books. I remember having constant brain zaps and feeling like a completely out of control bag of volatile emotions. Probably nothing about it felt good because it fucked up work so badly. Hope you manage to get back on track asap. I would risk going to a chain pharmacy to avoid SNRI withdrawals in the future...
Hey Baku! Was up early - I am going to a virtual conference in USA time later this week and trying to get myself to wake up at 3am for a few days as training. Hope you have a mre settled week this week 🤞🏻
woke up at one point last night on my side, knees at a 90 degree angle with a pillow in between, feet resting on the spaces between the ball and heels and fingers interlocked. Ontop of this rain was pelting the brick wall behind my head and I have to say it was the most comfortable I've been in a LONG time.
Using the words Processing and Unpacking when speaking or writing of thoughts.
I truly dislike these words because it turns people into machines, into objects. It's how a psychopath wants you to think about yourself and events. They want to define how you think and feel.
People reflect on events and feel emotions, they don't process. When you use the wrong word/idea you distance yourself from who you are.
People think about their lives and events, they may or may not think in an analytical way, they don't unpack. I unpack my groceries and when I do I'm not analysing what they are, how and why I bought them, the origin of the groceries, I'm not trying to make a narrative that makes sense, I'm not relating my groceries to other groceries. I'm just picking them up and putting them away.
The only time I use process is when someone tells me some really big news and immediately wants an answer. I'll reply with "um give me some time to process that".
Agreed! So much more is involved in reflection than just "unpack/process". I'm not "putting away" my thoughts, nor am I "processing" them like a warehouse. Sure, one can make a metaphor for how the brain stores memories (short and long-term, and how that can be disrupted, the effects of such disruption, etc) to how a warehouse stores stock or moves it. But as with all metaphors, they are lacking in a fundamental way: they discount the humanness of thinking and memories. The process of remembering and mindfulness is less a straight line of "A follows B follows C follows D...", and more akin to "A reminds me of F, and I feel X about that, but maybe I should think about D and how it relates to L and I can use that if I encounter G...".
Thinking of us as machines, well, dehumanises us lol.
I unfortunately use these kinds of words as a result of working at a community organisation that was run by an interlinking system of committees. There used to be a lot of meetings, and people padded out their conshy sounding contributions with the sort of language that adds absolutely no meaning. Honestly the joint was a bit like a cult and it took me a long time to deprogram myself.
@Seagoon_ it's possible that you're unaware that "unpack" came into this kind of discourse as a term from the 1988 essay "Unpacking the Invisible Knapsack," which is about deconstructing white privilege
> Using the words Processing and
> Unpacking when speaking or
> writing of thoughts
>
> I truly dislike these words
> because it turns people into
> machines
I feel the same. Same thing also with the word "content". If I write something, like an article or whatever, I did not "produce" anything, and certainly not "content". Even this little mastodon comment here, silly as it may be, is not "content". It's something I've written where I (a human!) expressed some thoughts.
I have some terrible news ... BreadTop at Melbourne Central is CLOSED. I don't know if it's permanent. This means my mornings are much less joyful... And my life has extended by a few years.
the heating is off to save some power whilst its just me home but maaaaan am I not loving that!
works also doing my head in. Just told my boss "You cant say X is in charge of Y, but keep giving me Y to do and not giving me the remuneration that matches that"
It wasn't even 11am before I had all the stress back that I'd worked off on the weekend. At some point I'm gonna go "Why am I working here again?"
I only had to go out to retrieve the bins today.
The new couch is extremely comfortable to stretch out on.
I'm working tomorrow but both places are warm and I get a cuppa and noms at both.
w000 first of two distills done on the sugar wash. Using up the last of my kits...took a gamble on dried yeast that expired in 2021 and was not kept in a controlled environment in any way, shape nor form and it's popped up at a respectable 50% after stripping run. A smish of soda ash, a dash of water, back into the still and then I begin the cuts
Base. Probably gonna end up in the hard solo, or maybe another burbon. Last burbon I made was apparently rather good, given how quickly it went, even if I was straining the cask chips out with a tea strainer.
when ever there is a big political event that draws all attention evil people like poitin will use the opportunity to do some more evil with out newspapers taking much notice
watch for poitin enemies disappearing and attacks on other nations , maybe some extra fraud
Anyone got tips for dealing with a dry, itchy, back-of-the-throat cough? Other than a salt gargle. Yesterday's headache and lethargy are mostly gone but replaced by this insidious annoyance. Feels like it's been years since I've had a throat problem
You get honey and you put some on a teaspoon and flip it over onto your tongue (so it's trapped between your tongue and the spoon) and suck it like a lollipop.
Can agree with the honey-lemon-ginger drink, but also liquorice can work, as can a tea made of dried thyme leaves. I think the ancient Romans used thyme for sore throats. Gargle or sip.
Lips getting a bit too dry for the chapstick to handle so I bought a clear lip gloss… however turns out it’s coconut scented 🤢 The scent is also lowkey burning my lips.
I give up man, all the beauty products seem to stink and hurt. I’d use coconut oil/vaseline/pawpaw but don’t want to be sticking my fingers into pots and touching my mouth. (The cat also loves pawpaw ointment and would try to lick it off)
Lots balms have something like menthol/camphor/mint in them. When your lips are dry or cracked the last thing I need is for them to slathered in spicy ingredients. Why do they put in in there???
I found the best ones are those lip balms you get from the honey stalls at markets. Soothing, long lasting and the unflavoured ones aren't attractive tasting enough to eat (which is my problem!)
@PeelerSheila@melbaboutown Unfortunately, they're going out of business. But, if there's still a Body Shop still open anywhere near you, their hemp honey lip balm works well.
(If there isn't one still open near you, various online stores that also sell them...)
First world problem. Phone is out of storage, and trying to put photos onto laptop to put onto external hard drive (laptop only has one USB-A port). It's making the laptop very slow, so can't do much else on it for the next eleven hours apparently, or unplug my phone. First it said an hour and twenty, now it says 11 hours.
My Win 11 laptop keeps trying to force me to try 'New Outlook' instead of the default Mail app. I'd do it, but currently Mail is an aggregate for multiple email accounts for my small biz and I can't risk stuffing them all up migrating the accounts
iphone? Its got an option in settings to offload to icloud the high quality ones. Saved me a ton of storage. thinkin Im gonna need bigger than 128gb next time.
Just playing some vintage LPs I got last week, one is an album of movie music by Alfred Newman ( Randy Newman's father ) and bless me but the album starts with the fanfare of 20th Century Fox, it appears Newman wrote it!! I was not expecting to hear that .
The album also has a booklet with "movie stills", I like the one of swashbuckling pirate Tyrone Power. 😹