Heyo, what have you done this month to make yourself better?
After what seems like a year of near constant stress, disappointment, and loneliness, I decided to stop sitting at my computer all day and start making better choices for myself. This was a really hard thing to do for me since I work from home about two feet from my entertainment area. I would end up sitting at my desk all day and neglecting things that I wanted to do and I wasn't sure why.
This month I have:
Set up the Ender 3 V2 that was sitting in my closet for two years and printed out a bunch of cool shit with my kid.
Exercised every other day to try to help myself with some vicious joint pain that has developed recently.
Kept the dishes from piling up on my desk.
Made doctor and dentist appointments.
Don't get me wrong, things are still stressful and disappointing, but I feel a lot better than I have in a long time. What have you done to care for yourself lately? Digging yourself out of depression is hard and I want to hear your successes, no matter how small they are.
Oh shit, that's a really good one. I hate that I instinctually grab my phone and start doom scrolling. Getting rid of Twitter was a big one that helped for me.
When smartphones were new, I started dating a girl who would roll over in bed first thing in the morning, pick up her phone, and start scrolling. I thought it was incredibly weird. Why not life? Why computer? Now, I do the same thing, and it's normal. Or rather it was until a couple of weeks ago.
The scary thing is that I'll start to get antsy as the one-hour mark comes near. I'll keep checking the clock for when I can pick it up and get my stimulation. So far it is working most days, though, and it feels like it improves the rest of the day for me.
I started learning a little about music theory. I've been interested for a while, but always thought I wouldn't be able to understand it. But it's doable, a little at a time.
And I've been going outside more. I spend too much time in front of the computer. It's nice to have fresh air and read, listen to music, or just take in the surroundings.
Congrats!! I loved the little bit I learned. It's a lot more intertwined with others subjects than I had thought, like physics and math. Feel free to share if you learned anything interesting 🙂
Trying to mentally/emotionally distance myself from my "customer service" job. Like, pretending I'm not a CSR, but that I'm playing the role of a CSR in a show, or something. After over 10 years working jobs like this, and for multiple reasons, the stress and asshole customers have been making me even even more miserable than necessary lately.
At the very least, this is helping me stay cool-headed and friendly enough to piss off angriest/most condescending callers, which can be pretty cathartic sometimes. It's not so effective when it's overwhelmingly busy, though.
Also, calling my lawyer, which was extremely stressful to me for literally no logical reason. Actually, I had a reason to look forward to it.
Using heavier weights for my workouts. It makes me feel great and so powerful to help my body fight stored trauma.
Yooooo!!! Me too!! I make sure to piss myself off real good before going to the gym. I'll be pacing like a madman before I get in the car. I know I'm ready when I don't even want to go outside because even sunlight is offensive. One time, I pushed it too hard and had to ground myself in the car at the gym parking lot for 15 mins. Between sets, I'm pacing and stimming with my earbuds in. Prolly look like I think I'm in a rap video.
I catch people side-eyeing me often. But, I could tell who gets it because I catch them doing similar and are friendly to me when we're near each other.
I don't know if this will work for the trauma eventually or just a mandatory habit now, but it's made adjusting my weighted blanket a lot easier.
I workout at home because I am too much of a germaphobe to go to a regular gym but also too self conscious about how I look while exercising lol BUT reading your comment made me glad there are other people out there pushing themselves to do better and not feeling judged for it.
Can relate to the rap video! I like old school stuff mostly but that big dawgs tune is fire.
Oh I hope it'll work out for you eventually because it will, literally, change the way you go through life ❤️
I went to a couple social dances hosted by a local ballroom dance club. I like pretending I'm someone else, someone cool, since I don't know anyone there.
The detachment process is hard, parasitic or not there are fond memories there. I hope you both the best of luck with the healing process, and can only say that time is the best remedy for forgetting about someone you used to care a lot about.
Well it's the first of October now but in September I was off sick with exhaustion, so I got a blood test done after a couple of years of putting it off, just to be sure of course. I rearranged my bedroom too for a change. I spoke to my supervisor at work saying I need more rest, so making sure I get breaks every day and not too many workdays in a row.
My tip for anyone who's suddenly struck with enough motivation to pull yourself out the hole: I find using a tasks app helps an awful lot with not only remembering to everything and when to do it but with feeling a bit of satisfaction when I mark it as done. Which reminds me, I need to tick off that I've taken my soup out the freezer this morning.
Just by returning to college fall quarter in the middle of the month, my exercise level has gone up compared to the sedimentary summer I ended up having. I have had to walk more with slightly more weight due to having to take my laptop case with me to and from my 3 classes. And it has made me actually get back into a slightly more regular eating schedule as I'm required to eat breakfast if I don't wanna be hungry after classes.
I finally started working out again! I also work from home and my Job made me miserable, but I'll be starting a new Job in November and that gave me hope and motivation to pull myself out of the depression hole.
As of yesterday, I played hard-ball with a job I really wanted, and it paid off to the tune of a salary I previously never would have dreamed of. Stressful as hell, but sometimes you gotta take risks.
I've started working on portion control. I don't necessarily eat "bad" food, but I tend to gorge out when it comes to meal time, which hasn't been great for my weight. But I'm finally sick of not being able to wear some of my favorite shirts anymore, and it'll be good for my overall heath anyway.
awesome u were able to find something to do w the the kiddo. ive been trying to spend more time w friends and family myself. keep on the lookout for activities that you both genuinely enjoy. my mom and i like cooking but i like to play board games w my dad.
Finally got some medical stuff sorted out. Also been working on my weight. I finished replayingg the original Kingdom Hearts on PS2 purely for my own enjoyment, which was fun, but I think that was last month.