It's heavy but I still miss when greentext got honest like this. I feel like there's very few places left where people are "anonymous" and express their deepest thoughts.
Whether true or not, thank you for sharing op. I hope you got some help.
FWIW I'm not even depressed by the post, but by the comment section... I just wish the sister would have said something, the dude must be devastated...
As someone that has (or had) a sister who died the same way, I don't even know what I feel reading the comments. These things unfortunately happen. I would feel the "she didn't do it, it's not real" for months after her being gone. I think we just don't want to accept it, but in the end you have to live with it. I hope anon is doing ok. In my situation I didn't had anything to do with and it was painful enough. I can't imagine what he is feeling and I hope he is well assisted to process everything.
First off, I know it's only words, but I'm sincerely truly sorry for your loss. I too hope anon is doing ok, must be rough. Especially since, probably because his sister loved him so much, he apparently didn't experience it as an assault, but rather as "something weird that just is"; so he must miss her, and possibly even beat himself up for having ignored that "weird stuff" instead of seeing it as a cry for help... That sucks, because at 12 he sure wouldn't have had the maturity to see that as a sign, and with time, the "routine" of it would have set in, so it might not have set any alarm off... So yeah, I'm with you there: I truly hope he got some help too, even tho given our society, I'm afraid that even some of the people with the best intent might do more harm than good. Gosh this is though...