It's like work email. Mine were 100% read for 16 years. Then I let one go unread, then two, and now I'm up to just under 1,000 unread emails. It's an adrenaline rush, like Russian roulette. I doubt I'll read any replies to this comment! I need help.
I have tons of those. I still mark every single one of them read. Only time I ever leave anything unread is when I need a reminder to get back to it later.
It’s all cope! I didn’t finish college until age 40. Now I’m struggling to get a job and I’ve got half a dozen hobbies in various states of active / pause.
I was totally dysfunctional 20 years ago (just playing video games all the time) and even dropped out of high school before that. I’ve since learned coping strategies that work for me but it’s still way more difficult than it should be!