Same. Tried that shit as a teenager and I couldn't get out of bed for a full 24 hours. Felt like the worst flu of my life. The only thing even close to a "high" was the extreme tunnel vision I got when I tried to stand up. It was so bad that I couldn't even sit up to watch The Price is Right. Had no choice but to sleep it off.
Scared me away from drugs so badly that I didn't even try weed or alcohol until I was well into my 20s.
IIRC when I took it recreationally itwas many many grams to get to the hallucinations part. It was hard to stomach. Unless the safety profile is pretty narrow I'd say it would be difficult to complete suicide with nutmeg.
Sadly the hallucination effect does not correlate with the toxicity,especially the hepatotoxicity with nutmeg.. You can absolutely kill of your liver and die an agonizing death a few days later and have no hallucinations at all.