Oh yeah I remember when I felt like that for a while (approx. 20 years). Turns out it's was some thing the doctor called "severe ADHD"
Depression can hit this way, too. You can be apathetic towards everything, no motivation, stuck in your head. It can be easy to get caught in a downward spiral, trapped in the vortex of negativity you no longer feel in control of.
[waves from the bottom of the vortex]
The apathy is probably the worst part. Like, I know this thing I need to do is important and that not doing it will have some very negative consequences, but I just don't care enough to do it. Then, last-minute panic sets in and I half-ass it, which is still good enough, but it hurts that I could do so much more if my brain wasn't malfunctioning like that.
Been me the past couple weeks. Why bother eating. I'm not hungry and don't feel like it. Why bother getting off the couch, I've been here for the last 36 hours and it's not like something's magically happened that's worth getting up for. Why even bother killing myself, if I just lay here long enough it'll happen eventually
Same.
Executive dysfunction be like.
This is why I like weed. It's not so much the body feel (though that is a nice bonus), as much as it quiets my mind and allows me to have some fucking peace and quiet in my own head.
I think you're just not high enough. I'm serious. When you are good and high the problem is that you are too enthusiastic and energetic.
Yes, drugs. But there's better.
Healthy food. Art. Working out regularly. Getting sun. Meditation. All that stuff will get you high.
Overwhelmed yet frozen in place, unable to act. That has certainly been the mood as of late
This is literally me
