Thanks everyone for the support yesterday. Despite feeling it was impossible I called in sick today and have spent the day sleeping (proper sleep not depression hiding I think) and on the couch listening to gentle music and journalling. Cleaned the kitchen. Haven't eaten much but it's good food. Drinking lots of water. About to go wash my hair.
My brain is exponentially calmer now. I wouldn't say I am looking forward to work tomorrow but it's not making me cry. I needed to just....stop.
Hopefully this is the circuit breaker I needed š¤
Tomorrow - early start, good food at regular times, decent bedtime.
so many hugs
Hot chips might not be the healthiest way to deal with one's problems and crying all afternoon... but they are A Way. Hooray for the air fryer. Helping me eat something rather than nothing
I find carbs to be a better antidepressant than SSRIs et al, especially with the cold weather. If you've Irish DNA you can call it medicinal.
Big interwebbles hugs from here too.
more hugs
Is there anything we can do?
extra late hugs
Ugh it feels like Friday 13th got here 3 days late. Bad medical appointment this morning, bad news at work, bad news on a couple of other fronts as well. Today can just fk off, I want my money back.
Anyone wanna scream into the void with me?! takes a deep breath
Aaaaaaarrrrgh
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Volume warning ššļø
Got a child sick with Covid at home. The RAT test was pretty quick and the line is very very strong.
It's lempsip and rest time.
Mrs sent ours to care, but I'm pretty convinced he'll be sent back home shortly. Snot pouring outta him and just in general sulky. Got a sore throat too so sounds like its going around.
I was a bit off last week for a couple of days, but didn't turn into anything. He was out with his mates on Saturday, so I'm assuming he caught it there. Or school.
Hopefully the wife and I avoid any potential contamination.
Hope Mini break gets well soon, sucks to be sick.
That's what our tests were like, an immediate strong line and no doubt for days, then it gradually faded. My good wishes for a speedy recovery šš¼
That fucking game again. Hayfever or a cold?
Iām playing along with you
Just found three $50s on the dog walk.
e: Rang the bell of the house it was in front of but no one answered. I reckon someone dropped it in the dark and didn't see.
Bonus!
winning
I think I might go to bed shortly. Long, long day.
Nothing bad, just exhausted.
Enjoy your evening everyone ā¤ļø
How dare I want to sleep without brushing Gibson...
I almost accepted the Windows 11 upgrade last night. That was scary
I dont mind 11 on my work PC, but on my gaming machine it drives me bonkers and I have no idea why I can accept it on one and not the other,
I think it's how resource intensive Windows is. There are things Windows does just as well as my Fedora laptop, but I like it more on linux because it doesn't take so much of my computer to run
I still haven't. I held onto 98 and XP for ages too. Vista and ME were solid reasons to be skeptical. I even had to support CE (the old mobile windows) which was literally called WinCE by windows so that support staff knew what was coming.
Shaved my head last night, my long hair was giving me the absolute shits, even with an undercut. 'Twas just a number 8.
Woke up this morning, and my hair resembled Bart Simpson's, stuck straight up. Slapped a beanie on to try and flatten it a bit. I forgot just how fluffy my hair is at this length. I have really thick hair, it's like wearing an unwieldy ushanka 24/7, so summer is just the worst. Hope this helps with the possible warmer days.
I get tempted to do that, or go really short. But this would happen to me or it would get really oily fast
I get oily roots, there's a point where the oil is okay and it kinda works to keep the hair where it should be - but then the next day I'll need to wash it.
I have not found a shampoo/conditioner combo that works for me yet. Even the dry versions are meh. So I just have to wash it every few days, but then it's super fluffy and looks wack as in the morning. I dislike the feeling of hair gel or hairspray, so I think my options are limited until it grows a bit. I also have a number of mental health issues that make personal hygiene hard sometimes, and honestly short hair is easier to clean and manage than long, for me.
Plus I have psoriasis behind my ears, which I think is caused by stress as most topical meds don't work against it (had it since I was a kid), and I can't apply them every day or it damages my skin in other ways. So either I have long unruly hair that hides my psoriasis, or a go short and have people silently judge me for a skin condition that I have little control over.
I'm also a tad sad, as I do like long hair and feel more feminine. I'm non binary, but my mum hated me looking feminine, so no dresses, no jewellery, no makeup, no straightening hair. So I wore baggy boys clothes and had frizzy hair, so I got bullied. Thanks mum. So as an adult I try to indulge myself with nice jewellery and dresses, long hair is a part of that for me. Sorry for the rant :/
Last night witnessed a car turning right, failing to give way to oncoming traffic.
Honking ensued. It was cops that got cut off, just regular cops, not highway patrol. Nothing else happened.
Regular cops can still hand out tickets, as far as I am aware.
Times like that I wish the offending driver would get pulled over, read the riot act, and slapped with every single fine imaginable.
There is a new resident in the neighbourhood. Itās a bird. It goes chirp chirp chirp, chirp chirp chirp, chirp chirp chirp, pause. Then repeat. For 20min, staring at 5:30am. I normally like nature but this is testing my tolerance.
noisy mynah
Research not going well. Its clear I can't commit the time originally needed so it's been massively downsized which is eminently sensible but I also feel like I don't really care about it that much either now, it's just another job, albeit one I don't get paid for. I could've been more responsible about understanding time frames and my own interests from the start but I didn't. On top of that, I feel pretty mediocre at work - I'm efficient enough but don't have any new insight to offer or areas of growth. So I'm pulled in multiple directions and can't do any of them well.
Think it's just partly a round of the ol' black dog making everything look like a failure and feeling like nothing truly interests me any more, I'm glad I've got some time off ahead... but I feel like it's also a sign that maybe I need to finally step back from the industry for real once I'm done in 8 months. Move interstate or whatever like I'd thought I might do this year. in the meantime I'm going to have to just phone everything in to stay afloat. meh. Sad.
So many hugs. It's just your brain playing tricks on you. You'll be fine. š
Continuing my journey through 1001 albums...today's offering is Beck - Sea Change
Perfect background music and very different from what I know Beck for.
Adding it to my rotation
Feels a lot colder than they say it is. Don't wanna leave my nest of coziness...
I was forced to leave this morning :(
Counting down till the end of the week then I'm on leave.
Waiting for my payday so I can restock of yummies for this weekend and also I have a couple of days to figure out what sort of yummies I want.
Iām meant to get Fortiflora probiotics but petcircle is out of stockā¦ Same for the other main pet shops. The only sources are sites I havenāt used before.
I really need to do some more housework today. Donāt wanna
Okay, new nightmare unlocked and I didnāt even dream this oneā¦
slightly disturbing....
Well that's just horrific.
man, F Apple! I got the apple care plan on my iphone cause I'm gonna ride the sucker into the ground (and at 2 years old now, its the longest I've "Dailyed" a phone). Anyway, my screen is scratched to the shithouse so i took it in to get repaired. Only No, Sorry, the plan covers cracks but not scratches! Fuckers.
@TinyBreak Yeah this has been their policy for ages, but it seems they softened the screen for gen 14 so scratches more easily, but cracks less. My wife offered to drop the unprotected phone onto the tile of the Apple store to smash it would they fix it then. They laughed and said yes but she didnāt follow through.
"Oops, I dropped it off the 16th floor balcony", it's cracked now.
I didnt say that to them, but my thoughts were well, what happens if I go out, smash it in the car park and go "its broke now. Fix it!"
I usually let this go (since it doesn't happen often) but called someone out on an email exchange between us where my name went from 'Danny' the first 5 or so times to 'Dani' the last two.
Clearly knew my name, since it's everywhere on the emails, so it's either laziness or intent.
Lol they're trying to get under your skin. Don't even mention it. If they cannot get your name right (which they obviously can), then playing into their hand is only going to enable them further and have them keep pushing your buttons.
Let it be water off your back, and know that you would never stoop as low as them.
They are jealous of you and being passive aggressive annoying.
Ignore it.
My last name can be a first name and it really bothers me when people address me by my last name. It shows you're not paying attention to anything if you're not looking at the sent name or my sign off
I think Mr Woof likes his new batch of food, he ate the whole bowl and wanted seconds!
I probably shouldn't have put Wonka on the telly because now I rilly rilly want chocolate. A small handful of dried fruit and nuts will have to do.
How do you clean a toilet properly? I try get in with a brush but I can't get everything down in the bowl.
Should I just buy some long gloves and get stuck in there?
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