As in able to enjoy pain in a general way? Have always been like that, I think. Even when it's awful and doesn't feel good it's sort of psychedelic?
Sexually? I do like some, didn't get to try that in real life until my 40s so that is when I figured out how much was a turn on for me and at what point it becomes a turnoff - I think sexually I may not be masochistic exactly, it's more that seeing a guy get off on hurting me like that is crazy hot, and the care they take to make sure you are hurt but not harmed? So I think it's more to do with general sexual submissiveness, I get off on doing it because it pleases them, if it was just for me I don't usually feel it in a sexual way, though thinking about it I will often use some light pain when doing myself so maybe that's not exactly right either. It's never a lot though just enough to focus me so I can stop thinking?
In short, I guess I always suspected I could enjoy pain sexually, fantasized about it from very young but didn't know it actually worked until I was older. There's such a big difference between thinking about it and doing it so I couldn't be sure until doing it, understand?
I'm still alive aren't I?
Are we talking physical or psychological masochism?
Guess that's up to you, lol.
Rough anal sex.
Thats what made me realize that there is a thin line between pleasure and pain for me. Thats what started an interest in impactplay.
I'm not really a masochist but I've always known I liked being tied up 🥰
