That sounds really shitty to have to deal with. Don't forget to be kind to yourself and practice self care. It'll get worse before it gets better, but it will get better. Hug
Not too bad. Did my injection yesterday which was a highlight. Looking forward to laser hair removal this week! Plus went snowboarding, which was nice. Overall a good week except are and drank too much. Back to dieting this next eeek. :x how was yours?
This week wasn't the best. My mom came to visit and I fought a lot with her over her refusal to use my pronouns. Also had to quit a medication I was taking and was dealing with the shit withdrawals...sigh.
I'm sorry to hear that dude. I've been fighting on and off with my parents about the same thing. It's unfair, and an emotional burden you don't deserve.
I had dinner with a couple of old close friends.
I wasn’t ready to tell them about me yet. The whole dinner just felt weird not being able to talk about it.
I didn’t know how to act: myself or pretend and I felt a bit sick going back and forward between them.
It was good to see my friends but the whole thing was just exhausting.
I feel that! That exhaustion and constant balance of "should I act like my old self or be my true self" ended up being too much for me. So I ripped the band-aid off and told everyone important to me in my life because I just really needed to be myself 100% of the time. Regardless of how others felt.
The only place I haven't yet is work, but that's a bit more tricky working in such a male dominated field :/
Just know you aren't alone and you can come out as quick or as slow as you need to! ❤️ Focus on self care and being yourself while you have to manage the juggling between worlds
Look forward to being able to rip that bandaid off someday myself. Male dominated field (gov IT) AND work directly adjacent to a parent. Shits awkward AF. And that weird awkward feeling/desire(?) somebody will find out anyway and not having to rip it off myself.
Until then, chipping away at egg. sheared Shaved legs yesterday and marveled at an array of freckles I have never really noticed before. Might actually use the insurance I've been paying for for years for the first time, actually deal with ADHD I haven't been medicated for in 16 years
I really want to throw out a bunch of my old boy clothes but I'm not nearly comfortable enough with my body yet, and not comfortable enough to go shopping for girlie things. It's leaving me feeling stuck in between versions of myself and unable to move forward.
It doesn't help that my birthday is this week and I am feeling like I am just way too old and flabby for fashion to even make a difference.
You got this Amelia! And happy birthday darling! My birthday was last week so I think that makes us pisces sisters ❤️
I'm still working on my wardrobe as well. I've found leaning into a more androgenous look with colors that work for me skin tone has helped me feel feminine without needing to worry too much about full on women's fashion at the moment. Maybe that could help?
Also, cardigans are amazing! Can femme up basically any outfit :)