Still laid off :-( and spending most of the time on Long Island with my family, however:
Friday got away from home to meet a sexy smooth guy who was down for some oral fun. Said he's "hung4hung" and I guess he was a good size, but I don't even know if I'm hung, and he was smaller than me. Fun to suck though!
I rimmed him, and is was a lot of fun to have his balls pressed against my nose while I was eating his tight ass. Ultimately I came from him sucking me (hands free) while my tongue was deep in his hole. He came after that by jerking off while I was rimming him.
We hung out for a bit and chatted while playing with his adorable and sweet dog who was curled up on the couch. It turns out he went to the same high school as me a few years later, and knows one of our family friends, who has the same name as me and was his class's salutatorian.
He also remembers attending my graduation because his cousin was graduating that year (I remember the cousin). And he remembers seeing me because I gave the valedictorian speech. Long Island is a small place sometimes :-)
We'll stay in touch. His husband is good looking, too so maybe we do some group stuff. Would be fun!
Saturday I went into the city. A friend's friend was hosting a special dance party for millennials who like to go to bed on time - starts 5pm ends 10pm, and includes pizza at the end.
I invited R to join, but he correctly suggested that he wants more 1/1 time with me before a party dynamic with friends.
I only knew my one friend there, and something about the crowd and about me, it was really fun. While dancing I found so many people (men and women) to be very sexy. And for the first time I felt comfortable just dancing freely, and if people were objectifying me and finding me sexy, I didn't mind that either. A couple of ladies made some flirty comments which were fun. One small and tight twinky guy was dancing in suspenders -- pretty sure he was on something, or I would have used those suspenders to pull him in tight against me :-)
Our group stayed out and it turns out it's a very kinky group of men and women! We hung out in an apartment discussing poly and kink relationships, sexual boundaries and consent, dom/sub dynamics, penises and vaginas, and so much more. This was a big deal for me. I've never had a conversation with a woman/women which was so open and transparent. It was such a turn on. They are all beautiful women, too. One of the guys, too ;-)
We have a kinky/sex group chat now, full of discussions of orgasm goals, eating pussy, double entendres (hot sauce tastings?). This should be very interesting.
Got home at 4am, ate some ice cream and chips, slept at 5am, and had to wake up at 6am for family stuff lol. I'm very excited to sleep tonight.
I think it is dangerous to ask about self-hung lest one hangs-self over the claim. Is what it is. I don't worry about anything that is out of my control like genetics.
I really don't mind either as I had a lot of fun and frankly his size was a joy to suck comfortably. I do, however, find myself less clear on what I (and others) define as hung.
Nothing so far and for the past few weeks. Wife is never in the mood, and I havent had time to even do anything myself due to work being busy and weekends being busy too. Literally going to bed constantly hard and throbbing then waking up and still being hard and throbbing.
But! I will have some alone time for myself in the coming days which as you can guess i am extremely excited for.
I reached out to an old acquaintance who liked dick pics. I told her that I had lost a lot of weight and gained some length and that it was looking majestic. She asked for a picture. We have a reservation at a nice local hotel on Wednesday. She said yesterday that we had never touched. There will be touching.
It went well. She had thought for years that I didn't like her because I never talked to her or touched her. I never talked to her because she was pretty and I am an Aspie and was shy and awkward. I told her that I thought it would be fun if the first time I ever touched her was a kiss
I met her in the lobby of the hotel, we took the elevator up to the floor and walked to the room, I opened the door and we stepped in. She took her coat and scarf off then stood facing me and said, "What now?" I leaned forward and kissed her then backed away. She said, "That's not enough", and stepped forward to hug me and really kiss me.
We talked a lot, we played and joked and snuggled. I'm almost 60 and I was tired and excited and nervous so my cock was a little uncooperative. She was very understanding. We had sex in starts and stops. I went down on her and she said, "WOW! You're really good at that!" She sucked me and we fucked in various positions over the course of four hours. In the end I came inside her and she said, "Woah, we just had unprotected sex." I said, "Yes, but I'm fixed and we're both squeeky clean." She said, "I know. I'm through menopause so I'm done. That was just the first time for me in a very long time." I apologized for cumming inside her without asking and said that I realized that we hadn't discussed it. She laughed and said it was fine with her, that she had wanted me to.
In the end I told her that I had had fun and would like to do it on a semi-regular basis. She laughed and asked me what, "semi-regular" meant. I told her that it meant whenever we could find time to get together. She said, "Let's just see how things go" and I said, "Ok".
When she got home she sent me a message saying, "Let's do that again, ok?"
Get well soon. Please take enough rest, drink enough and have sufficient ventilation in your home. I have had Covid twice so yeah I know it is a b-word.
It was my first time at that particular group, though I recognized one "daddy dom" (bearded stoner, not my type) from the munch I went to the previous weekend. He and his wife organized it, and folks talked about tame things because we had no privacy next to the pool tables. I had to take the last bus home just an hour in, so I missed out on whatever they ended up doing.
Thinking about and playing with ways of writing a LLM roleplaying story that prompts the user to choose between sending interstellar colony ships with 3k people or convincing them to send a colony ship with only 325 genetically selected humans on a 10 year contract to get the population past 3k. Then forcing them to discover the social and moral implications as they discover you can't form relationships but must coexist in close confines with an AGI telling you who you must partner with for 10 years. I don't know if I can warp it to mostly interesting philosophical with a bit of fun. It's mostly fun but forgotten philosophy.
Just doing stuff with offline open source LLMs. Oobabooga Textgen WebUI, KoboldCpp, Python scripts for a model loader (tokenizer), models from huggingface.co. There are plenty of NSFW models, but you need to run the larger ones for complex fun. I use either a 70B or a 8×7B model, but you'll need enthusiast level hardware for those like i7 12th gen or greater, and 16GB+ GPU. You'll also need 64GB+ of system memory. There are smaller models that run on lower specs but they tend go really struggle with complexity and highly constrained stories like this.
I put a butt plug in before going to my FWB's place this weekend and gave him a little surprise when he pulled my underwear off. I left it in while we had sex, I felt so full! He asked if I had any other toys, so I told him about all my toys, then he showed me his fleshlight. I'm planning to show him my collection next time we're at my place. I'm excited to have him use a vibrator on me!
Nice! I think it would be fun for someone to use my flesh-light device on me. My toys have been almost exclusively for solo play, but it doesn't need to stay that way.
I've heard about women using butt plugs during sex. Nice to know that it really can enhance the experience :-)