To be honest, I love being a part of a group. I even crave it, sometimes. The hard part is finding an appropriate group, and the harder part is to feel comfortable in it.
Not autist (or never looked) but... basically that is what I feel. I join people, a discord group or whatever then the second I actually let myself go Im kind of a pariah for saying something idiotic casually or behaving in a certain way.
At this point Im too traumatized, feel it needless to try really go socializing all the while loneliness is eating me up. This is just a loop that eats away at me, each day feeling like remaining alone is a foregone conclusion. Of course even if that was fixed, I have chronic pain so I wont enjoy anything.
I want to kill myself. And if I fail there is nothing anyone can do but torture for me it. Even more of an outcast, who lost his mind.
I'm glad I saw it, since I very much relate (or used to, I can no longer physically get out much, but more importantly I cut ties with the kind of people in the last panel lol)