Thank you very much for your kind message and for your work creating this space. Having the opportunity to express myself here has been very positive for me. I feel I am shedding weight and the road becomes a bit easier. I really appreciate it.
Thank you very much for the encouragement. These are my thoughts also right now, and what keeps me going despite everything. I just need to keep walking this path until the trail becomes nicer. Your words make the burden more bearable.
Thank you for your message. I am certain that there are other opportunities that with work and patience I will be able to tap. Your words are great company in these moments.
I agree. I have been working on shifting my identity from work to things that bring vitality to my life. Work sucks vitality out of my life to be honest. I didn't gel very well with my team, I was not for very long in this position. It was a remote-work one that is moving to an office in a different city just a few months after I jointed. This was the reason of my termination. I am not too worried about my coworkers or my boss. But as you say, it is frustrating. Thanks for your message, being able to express myself has been of great help.
Thank you for your kind words and for your encouragement. You are correct in that I need to be kinder to myself. This is a habit I have always struggled to build, but it is true. Times like these are when I need to work on these skills.
May the sun always shine on your path.
Need to get things out of my chest
Hello. I'm going through a rough period and I need to take some things of my chest. I am a trauma survivor diagnosed with CPTSD. Although professionally and financially I am fairly successful, I am a deeply unhappy person.
My condition stems from a history of neglect and abuse from my family along from bullying at school. I always lacked someone to talk about my problems, so I grew up without a safe person to talk about my problems. I am not very social and I prefer solitude. I was born from a poor family in a 3rd world country. My life has always been about survival and trying to "get out of the hole". I eventually immigrated to a 1st world country and found my financial stability. I made my career the focus of my life. It works for me most of the time.
Recently I got laid off, so that impacted my mental health. Although I dislike this job and I was considering leaving, I cannot shake off the feelings that "I'm not enough". My work is not good these days. I am just counting the days before my termination becomes effective. Every time I make a mistake I beat myself up, I hear the much hated voice of my father pointing out the errors.
I know I am going through a rough patch and that eventually things will get better, but every day is uphill. I am fortunate that through therapy I have learned ways to ground myself and not let my negativity consume me, but it is painful.
Thanks for creating this space to share. All the best to those who struggle with mental health issues.