:P It's a little of both - I've cooled off a lot now in my late 30s, but I had a very hard time as a child and into my teenage years. It's the events from back then, and the choices I made during that time that I carry a lot of shame about.

I don't know of any resources, and it's definitely something I feel like I can't talk about. You aren't alone!

Bahahaa! Yes, the heroes have averted so many apocalyptic and reality-destroying situations that "final" is definitely misleading! Of course, if the heroes never set out on their journeys, then maybe the world doesn't get saved...

Anyway FFXI is the first MMORPG Final Fantasy (FFXIV being the more recent one) and it's jam-packed with many different potential "final" fantasies! It's kept me busy since 2006!

Hi! I started back in 2006 and have played off and on over the years. I've had periods of time where I unsubbed and didn't play at all, and other times where it was my only game! I got back in to playing in 2020 during the pandemic lockdowns and I'm still logging in daily even now! No other game has captured me quite like FFXI.

13,027 hours and counting - Final Fantasy XI

Try canned crushed tomatoes. If you can access some seasonings, a bit of garlic powder and dried Italian blend herbs go a long way to making it taste more like pasta sauce. It can be warmed in the microwave or stovetop if you have access. It is safe to eat right out of the can without heat but def tastes better if you can simmer it for a while. Leftovers will require refrigeration or can be frozen. You mentioned that you can't keep produce, so if you don't have a fridge or freezer, look for small cans of plain tomato sauce - not pasta sauce, and not tomato paste, but just plain sauce. You can dress this up with herbs also and have a smaller amount to avoid leftovers