A little late to the party but just inside of the month of pride!
It'd be impossible to create a sincere pride piece without talking about personal connections with pride. As a masc-presenting NB person I've always felt a great anxiety about living up to gender norms, especially those parts of masculinity which are violent and selfish.
Wow, looks like you put in a lot of effort into this canvas! This scenery gives us spectators many ways to interpret it. And speaking of pride, it's never too late to show it.
May your situation get better in the future. Because getting anxiety from living up to gender norms sucks