[Advice] Has anyone found balance?

So here's me: Up until a week ago, I was really into self-improvement, like REALLY into it. You can even say I was obsessed. You can think of something, I did it. How to pick up women/day game/charisma/cold approach, Worked out every day, did tricking/parkour, finished Can't Hurt Me in a day, learned two hard piano songs with by myself with no piano background, and I when I did scroll, it was all Redpill-looksmax-Andrew Tate-Sneako-Goggins. I am Christian and I even put it above maybe even my morals unknowingly. I believe it all stemmed from insecurity and grudges and vengeful mindset, since growing up I was a people pleaser and said yes to everything, kind of like the "nice guy". I wanted to prove everyone wrong and have them "Flex that they knew me" or "Theyd regret how they treated me". I'd have to say it did work and I accomplished a lot, but I still felt broken and it seemed to never end, always wanting more. I was mad all the time and it was straining my relationships. Then I came across this life changing tik tok post about a guy explaining that well the "nice guy" and the "badass bad boy" will ultimately lead to a dead end (ill link it it as it changed my life), as they both stem from insecurity, and that we have to come from a healed standpoint, being thankful for what we got while striving for more.
Fast forward I am feeling like a better person, but now I don't seem to improve. I haven't been working out at all now and I don't feel any drive or motivation or desire to chase goals or learn money or anything and I'm very afraid. On and on this goes like that one quote: “Hard times create strong men, strong men create good times, good times create weak men, and weak men create hard times."
It seems to never end and judging from the pattern ill probably come back to that narcissistic "bad boy".
Has anyone found balance? if so how?
Thank you to any responses.