Regret
Regret
I'd been raised to avoid things that weren't fine with my parents, but lately, I'd been trying to see the other sides through their writing (blog, novel, review, discussion, etc) and I regretted not doing it sooner. A lot of the things there would've helped me to become what I want to be.
I've started to realize a few things about my parents as I've grown up. Some make me more understanding, and some less so. Talking with them, adult to adult, is sobering in a lot of ways.
Mood.
Looking back at my life, I can identify various situations where I chose to forgo an opportunity to try something new (we're talking about things that are not dangerous but totally kosher, like trying to learn a new programming language) because I was too busy doing things I was "supposed" to be doing, like schoolwork. I wish I'd jumped on some of those opportunities back then.
Wow, I feel you on the "too busy doing things I was 'supposed' be doing" thing, except my "supposed to" was college. I wasted a lot of good money because I didn't know what I was doing there except that I was supposed to go to college. Now, 14 years later, and I'm trying to train for something else (programming too) because I don't like doing what I ended up going to college for. Talk about regret.
It was college for me too, heh.