She was really nice and we had an amazing time. I realized after that she didn't deserve to be dating someone who, at the time, wasn't ready to date again yet.
Kapag may art na hindi ko type or naintindihan iniisip ko na lang, 'Ok, I'm just not ready for this yet,' because it's not the right time or moment or maturity or intellectual level.
I go back to it a year or five years or longer and maybe, I know how to appreciate it by then. It always blows away my mind when this happens. What seemed like a simple thing suddenly has so many layers. So this was what the others saw or heard or understood that I couldn't. Amazing. I'm glad I get it now.
Does the same thought apply to people and relationships? Hmm, it seems to be much more difficult to go back to what was once there if you know, you really fuck it up. Plus you can't just go, Oh I don't understand you so balikan kita in one year lol. If you appreciate it too late, chances are you're already looking back with a tinge of regret or nostalgia.
I'll just go, I had a marvelous time ruining everything.
Yung art, walang pake kung di nagets ng isang tao. Di yun mag-aadjust.
People can adjust. People can apologize. People learn and change. People has a capacity to fix the problems they even created. You know, love cliches, but it won't make love anything less.
It is a thing. I can't say for certain but some of the shit I'm experiencing right now must be related to the COVID I had last year. I wasn't greatly affected but man I feel weaker in general, but it might not be the only factor.
You know what I need? Something sweet. I need some fucking sugar. To be specific: double dutch ice cream, cookie dough, and lemon bars. Dati ko pa talaga gusto ng cookie dough. Why have I denied myself cookie dough in the past? Do I hate myself or something?
the other day some plumber/maintenance guys went in here to fix my sink
it was weird how they used some plastic tubing to connect the p-trap to the wall
apparently they snipped it off of my washing machine hose thing without my permission
not that it renders my washing machine useless but i just don't understand what the fuck is going through their heads malala pa sa asal katutubo??? parang pumulot lang ng sanga sa sahig amputa
makes me wonder if it's worth starting a career in plumbing kung ganito mga kalaban ko HAHAHA kinanginang utak yan