The sudden downs (and ups) are really frightening. Because you know that nothing happened to trigger it, and it's really just your biology fucking around
Sad to hear that lithium didn't work for you. I have zero side effects luckily, except hypothyroidism for which I take L-thyroxin, and have zero side effects again.
Have you found meds that work for you?
I tried many meds before lithium
In order
Quetiapine. Due to psychotic mania . Worked like a charm
Aripiprazol. As a replacement for the Quetiapine. Because I had depression and no energy. Worst medication I've ever tried. I didn't make it past the first 3 days due to severe akithisia combined with being really tired and sedated. Pure agony holy shit. Stopped it and back on Quetiapine again.
Lamotrigine. Didn't work at all. Even with 325mg daily my serum levels were way too low.
Escitalopram. It worked a little bit against the depression, but my QT time was prolonged so I had to stop.
Lithium. I was hospitalized, and we decided to try Lithium. First they fastly tapered me off of Lamotrigine. Then started Lithium. It works perfectly. I don't wanna say it and jinx it but I really feel like I'm cured. Euthymia is nice.
Right now I'm on 675mg Lithium, 300mg Seroquel XR, and 50mcg L-thyroxin.