"I've had a lot of what I thought were rock bottoms, only to discover another, rockier bottom underneath " from Bojack Horseman.
Depression is like a poison, slowly but surely weakening you. It makes each day harder than the last. So the past feels so much better than the present.
If you, random reader, liked that quote and haven't yet watched Bojack Horseman, watch it immediately. This is not a request, it is a command. Resistance is futile, non-compliance will be met with swift and decisive consequences.