First Mushroom Experience
First Mushroom Experience
On the weekend I am planning to take psilocybin for the first time. I am generally a very careful and cautious person. During my twenties I got struck heavily by depression. What saved me from it and many bad habits that I picked up through the years was an ever increasing meditation regiment that continuously reduced the frequency of my recurring bouts of depression.
I am not sure what to do. I feel like psilocybin could be just the thing that completely cuts the remaining shackles of my depression or this is what I fear; it drives me completely insane.
Maybe meditation will bring me also there, maybe I am just too impatient. I don't know.
I am looking to rediscover genuine joy. Being able to relate to people. I often have the feeling I can not connect to people on a fundamental level because there is this traumatizing depression with us in the room and I just think they haven't seen what I have seen. And this separates us.
I feel undecided and it seems like I am lacking the wisdom to make a decision.
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My man, just eat the shrooms and have fun. You don't need any "wisdom".
Thanks it was an intense experience indeed. I felt like liquid emotion was pouring into me again.
That is awesome to hear! I wasn't sure about sending the message as I didn't want it to seem too harsh or anything but I also just wanted to give you a push to stop thinking so much about it and just dive in and enjoy the experience for what it was without too much thought.
I know that I thought I would "break myself" or my mind before doing acid the first time and being worried about it but it is now my most favourite thing to do and I've had so many great experiences with it.
I think sometimes people try to force trips to go in a certain direction or try too hard to make it into some great learning experience when I think the best approach is to just to with it and have a great time.
I hope now that you've embraced it and had a good time you will try it again with an even more open and clear mind going in, knowing you aren't going to "go insane" and it will open up some new ways of thinking and feeling for you. If nothing else you will have some really fun times and I think ultimately that is the most important thing!
If you get a chance I strongly recommend trying some acid. It is quite similar but also different too, in my experience people often prefer one over the other but they are both great in their own ways.
If you want to ask any questions please feel free to pm me and I will answer to the best of my knowledge. I have only done shrooms a handful of times but have done acid probably over 100 times at this point so I'm definitely more familiar with that :)
Have a great day / night :D
You gauged the situation quite well. I was a bit ruffled by that answer but could feel the intent. On that day we had wonderful weather and sat on a river bank under the canopy of some trees. Sadly having fun for the sake of having fun is in my culture quite frowned upon. To a great extent I felt like I was leaving the hallucination that I call my life and view it from a different perspective. I could write much more but at the end it is just words.
Similar to you I could have written many words but it all would have boiled down to that one single sentiment and so I chose to just get straight to the point in the end xD
If something is frowned upon I see that as more of a challenge to do that thing usually xD
Happy future travels!