Oh! Well, I didn't understand I was trans until the pandemic (I kept getting ma'amed because of the masks and really liked it, that's when I knew) and I was 29 by that point. I don't want to die anymore ? It's great!
I also have no friends because I was too depressed and dysphoric for a decade after HS to maintain relationships. Also failed out of college so I'm a factory worker (though I don't hate it) and live in the middle of nowhere. So, yeah, I don't really have people to reach out to.
Oh. It's so great that you don't want to die anymore. Now that you explain it, it seems not as bad as before not having friends.
Maybe I could tell something about me as well. When I finished College(12 Years Education) in my country, I had terrible mood swings, I had a terrible crush on one person for literally 4 years, and Since, I couldn't be with this person, I was tormented just at the sight of that person.
Now that, I'm in University, I have made good friends, even though, I used to think I have social anxiety, which I've 90% Conquered now.
P.S. Sorry about making this about me. Either ignore it, or tell me more about yourself.
Though uh, there's just not much more about myself? Well, there's a job opening coming up this fall that comes with college benefits and I'm going to try to go for that. I'll probably go into skilled trades, maybe as an electrician? We'll see!
Wow you're kinda in my position except I'm not trans and got some of my family left that care about me. Keep fighting the good fight buddy hopefully you'll find yourself some friends