Late night

Sometimes I feel like I need to scream into the void. I dont feel kike I have anyone to scream to even the people that I should. I kinda want to scream about them and why I choose them. I know we dont work well on many levels on my side but I do love him. Screaming that I dont love how I feel with him. He doesnt like people or interacting and his views on women are a problem to me but he doesnt see it and althought I know where it comes from I know this isnt healthy for me because he wont see it as a problem and I cant fix him. I dont like anything about this. I never will. I know he doesnt have a support network, but he wont make one, saying Im enough. But on my end it has always been exhausting. This is probably incomprehensible but it has made my depression so much worse because im not just responsible for myself but hin too because he wont.