The latter

I plan ahead and then often can't bring myself to do the plan because of some kind of executive dysfunction so I'm good at improvising too. It got really bad for a while I remember I couldn't get into the shower before a long road trip so I just cried in the bathroom and eventually got in there but it made me leave a day later.

I'm getting better at it, but it still flares up when a big plan gets roadblocked by me.