[advice]

I despise myself. I hate my laziness, entitlement, and lack of ability to work hard. But yet I know I have to tell myself I am enough. Because positive self talk does wonders and only with a positive view of myself will I be able to give positive things to the world. Yet I find it so difficult to praise and be proud of myself when I have so many flaws. It so hard to find a balance between self-love and being complacent, and I have’t figured out yet how to continue to push myself to be better everyday yet still be happy and proud of what I have already accomplished, because often it feels like I haven’t accomplished anything at all. You could say that I shouldn’t put so much pressure on myself, yet I always feel like all that would result in is me continuing to be the lazy piece of shit which I hate, leading to more negative thoughts. It seems like a cycle of self-sabotage but I don’t know what to do about it.