It's a couple months to the 4th anniversary of my brother's suicide. I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I hope you're able to still talk to him, as much as any of us can. There are people there for you if you need them, though you may have to look for them.
I really appreciate that, he wasn't a good man, my brother that is. To most he'd be remembered as a statistic but he was a man no less, and my brother no more. Yet he was killed in the streets like an animal, it saddens me.
I'm sorry you lost yours too, please take my love and hope for your grieving to find comfort. Thank you for sharing yours, thank you for gifting me companionship in something so horrid.
My brother wasn't a good person either, at least not most of the time. He always, always made me feel safe though. I never got to tell him how much he meant to me, and he never got to see his nieces and nephews.
I'm glad you feel less alone, and myself, and likely others in your life, are here for you <3
God that sparked a sadness, he never meant to hurt me. He was just a child of abuse and had mental issues, I do too. When I was growing up he saved enough money to buy me a bike, back in Mexico. He loved so pure when he could.
He'll also never get to see his nieces and nephews. Never a chance.