I may have gone through a phase of this until I realize how futile it was

Only tangentially related, but when I was a kid I'd write stream-of-consciousness type stuff in a "code" consisting of the first letter of every word. Whenever I run across one of my old notebooks, I spend some time trying to decipher it, generally without much luck. Sometimes it'll spark a bit of remembrance, like dipping madeleines in tea.