Not Sure if Cis Man or Demiboy. Looking for Suggestions
Not Sure if Cis Man or Demiboy. Looking for Suggestions
23 year old AMAB. All my life, I've considered myself cisgender, but recently, I've begun questioning that. I'll sometimes see posts like "if a potion/pill/button existed that could turn you into the opposite sex, would you use it?" and think to myself "Yeah, I'd be down to at least try that." I know that doesn't automatically make me trans, but it does make me question.
At the same time, however, I get a lot of euphoria from presenting as a man. When I start questioning my gender, I'll look in the mirror, or at pictures of myself, and think "I look good with this masculine hairstyle", "I like getting dressed up in a suit and tie", or "I want to try growing a beard". And the idea of being a father someday does bring me a lot of joy.
I've done a bit of research already, and based on my experience, I think I've narrowed my possible identities down to two options.
- Cisgender male who is just curious about the female experience
- Demiboy with a secondary identity of female
The thing is that I'm not sure where to go from here. This isn't exactly a problem, since I feel no dysphoria when presenting as a male, so am comfortable living as cis in the meantime. But I would like to figure this out at some point, ideally sooner than later. Do any of you have any suggestions?
Side note: I'm currently living with my parents, and while they're generally nice people, they hold some pretty transphobic views. I do expect to move out sooner than later, but anything that would require a totally safe physical space might have to wait.
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This sounds familiar, I'm kinda the same way, I describe m'self as male as I happen to be that way, but if'n it changed tomorrow? Sure, why not, in fact several of my online characters are intersex, specifically the ones that I would be most happy becoming.
Yep, the ones that feel most right are a little from column A and a little from column B.
When it comes to sexuality, I've given up trying to figure that out, and simply refer to m'self as queer, since I think that and my gender are a bit mercurial, so an umbrella term that basically means not 'normal'/traditional/standard seems best.Best I could say is do what makes you happy, and be patient, it's a journey, sometimes one without an end, sometimes with, so just explore and enjoy.
Thank you. I'm definitely not trying to rush, because I realize this is something to handle delicately.
On the subject of sexuality, that's actually something I'm quite certain of. I'm attracted to women and only women. Labeling that might be a little difficult if I do end up being NB, though.