This is probably why I was diagnosed with OCD in my teens and endured years of medications that didn’t help me at all. Now I’m in my 40s and finally on proper ADHD meds. Doing pretty well, I’m happy to share.
This is me. It sometimes feels like my autism and ADHD are at odds. For a very long time, I refused to make any lists or do any kind of planning because if anything disrupted the process of executing them, I’d have a meltdown or come close to it.
Even now, I have to loosely plan, which comes across to allistics and NTs as being overly negative, when in reality it’s proactive ADHD management and meltdown prevention.